peach girl..
woke up at ard 10 today. went to bathe, was all refreshed. then sat down and watched tv and enjoyed my TV day! haha. watched all those kids central cartoon. then finally, its 12pm! watched peach girl. its so nice noe! vaness's so funny. starting to think that his shuai. after watching the show gives ppl an urge to fall in love. haha. then after that got fruits basket. this 2 show is a must must to watch on my TV day. that's why i choose saturday as my TV day. was supposed to do hw, but ended up watching video tapes. those SHE, energy, and zaizai one. so funny. din manage to watch energy de. nuthing came out of the tape. sianx. the zaizai one. damn funny! adeline told me to watch it eventhough i din like zaizai.. now i noe why, lolx. okiex la, that's abt it. i watched tv the whole day le, shall go finish up my emaths now, tatax~

last day of sch..
it was the last day of sch yday.. miss leong gave us a talk aft morning assembly. think we're really the lousiest batch.. how? our mye is like.. goodness. atrocious! anyway. after the talk, went back to class, clear things up, then got report book and our lil notes from mdm faridah, since she's not in sch today. mr tay helped her give out report books and the notes to us. haix. saw the result slip before le la, so not very surprised. just that i feel that ive not done my best. hmmmm. i will work really really hard! later i'll start work le. yayx!
okiex. after that, me and yuhua went jurong east! went there to swim! lalala! so fun! the last time we went, we opened the locker to get money to rent the float. then we thought i got the money out le, then dunnit to open the longer and pay extra 40cents again. in the end, we forgot to take out our specs! -_-".. haha. but we decided not to open the locker. we hid our specs under the locker, on top of our slippers. lolx. so corny.. then, off we went to swim play water! went for the slide 1st. so fun! screamed our head off. we scream for the sake of screaming, for the fun of it. lolx. then the whole pool only us screaming ba. who cares. went for one more round. then went for the dunnoe wad pool, forgot the name. the one going around, dunnit to swim, just lie on the float that one la. then after that we went to wave pool to play. and, here comes the WAVE!! hahaha. so fun! went to the deep end, the side of the pool, where the wave is the strongest! so fun! like yun1 chuan2 liddat, after sometimes. but ok la. then got spray water at everyone. act as rain ba. then the water so bloody cold! yuhua was lying on the float, so she cant control, so i kept dragging her to the 'rain'. lolx. so fun. but i also kana the 'rain' leh. very cold! *brr*.
then went for the slide again. and we found a notice, saying that the wave is once in an hour. so, after the slide, we went for the round abt thing, then the slide again, then the wave pool! haha. fun! this time no more yun1 chuan2 le. then went for the round abt thing, then the slide, then the wave pool! this time, we went there early, and found ourselves a good spot, and waited for the wave to come! lolx. so fun. then got cute guy lehx! at least i thought his cute. then as the wave came, all of us started to struggle and swim against the current, haha. it was so fun! its alwaes either yuhua floating away or me. haha. was lying on my float. so fun! played cheat, held on to the string(its the boundary thingy, to avoid ppl to go further than 1.7m, means im at 1.7m there, taller than me!!), haha. the wave stopped, we're at 1.7m there. i floated to 1.6m there, jumped down from my float. oops, im still too short, haha. luckily i noe how to swim, if not i'd have drowned. haha. grabbed my float. and slowly floated away.. then after that, me and yuhua decided that we're bored of the wave pool, and concentrated on slides and the round abt thing, which we could sleep in it. haha. went for the slide, screamed our heads off as usual. so fun! did i say that we need to climb the stairs up to the top to play the slides? and did i mention that its the tiring part to climb? its even more tiring than to swim against the current. haha. so we made more than 5 trips up the stairs, of abt 6 storeys high, to slide down. woohoo~ guess yuhua enjoyed climbing, i certainly not. haha. she's so on abt it. but whenever i thought of climbing, i din wanna play le. but thinking of the fun part, drives me up the stairs, lolx.
after that, we went to the round abt thing, as everyone went for the wave pool. and i realised i got sunburn. i was red like lobster. it was really very fun! haha. after a few rounds, we went for the slides again. then went to bathe and went for dinner.
we ate the $1 chicken rice and a burger each. the yuhua, still nort full, she went to buy bao to eat. i had mars, so i ate it. she thirsty too. but not enuff money to buy drinks. poor us. i told her to buy plain water. lolx. and she wasted 30cents to buy plain water. actually, we shud have looked for a macs to get free plain water hor. stupid us.. anyway, was really tired. so we went home le. LEI SI LE!
reached home, slacked ard a bit. then applied cream all over my burnt areas. so painful! the price to pay for having fun har? the fun part is more important thing ba =). then i fell asleep soon after that. ooh, i sure am tired. think this entry is long, shall continue in another entry. tatax~
the price to pay..

tralala
heyhey! almost one week nv update le.. been a guai kia this week.. stayed up late to do work lehx! that's monday only la, haha =P. then tues night stayed up till 2am to do up june holiday's plan.. feeling so guai, hahaha. finished emaths specimen paper B. erm, except the graph questions la, haha. then started with specimen paper C. almost done with paper1 le.. and am almost done with chinese zuo ye, left with one summary. then still got the mock papers. lotsa them.. emaths(2), amaths(1), phy(1), chem(2), chinese(2).. no more le.. then still got eng tys, news paper commentary.. ss, more phy online hw.. still need to do lotsa self revision. wah.. feel that one month holiday not enuff.. how?had been going out for lunch this week, a bit broke now. supposed to save up de, but din manage to. haix. nvm, think still will have enuff for the holiday, since im still getting pocket money from my dad =P. yday was the best. stayed in sch to study. did a lot of maths there. then it rained. damn it.. my shoes' all wet. bahhh. went for treatment just now. sooo painful. bahh. went adeline's house before that. just like last week. haha. and she went with me, just like last week. and we went to buy food after my treatment, just like last week. hahaha.
tml's the last day of sch! yay! getting back report book =S. having big sweep too. think we having talk by miss leong again. tralala. think she's going to ask us study hard and catch up during the holiday, just like wad she alwaes say ba. after that, im going to jurong east swimming complex with yuhua!! yay! with her again. haha. we went there last yr's last day of sch too. hahaha. to play water! yayx! tml will be a fun day. and after tml, i will work extra hard to achieve my goal. no one's gonna stop me!
oh, did i mention that i went chalet last week, during the weekend? the 1st night simply went there to sleep, haha. and my sis bought roller blade. cool. then the nx night, had steamboat and bbq. steamboat food was nice. bbq food was either burnt or uncooked. lolx. but its still nice. other than the uncooked food =P. its not me who bbq the food kx. its my cousins. my job is just to eat the food, haha. it was fun. just that the chalet was extremely small. but cosy, so nvm. ooo, late le. shall sign off here. tatax~

addition..
oh ya, had a lesson with miss susan leong yday. was so inspired by her okiex. she came to motivate us to study, i guess. through games and stuff. woah! she's so different from who she is during morning assembly and stuff. she's just like adam khoo! haha. motivaters. she made us play this game. which need very strong concentration. to let a pendulum move. hmmm. its really fun! and everyone can do it! though it seems almost impossible. u're only in contact with the string of the pendulum. and make it move without moving ur hand. and it'll really move. isnt amazing, just like the game i played during cl. haha. then she said a lot of things, stories, to motivate us. she asked us to imagine seeing the 'O' level cert. i imagined. and i can see all A1s! almost wanted to cry. scored so well! then she said things, that i think is so relevant to me. its just like she's telling my story. i was so.. dunnoe how to say. she not merely want us to do well for O's, she wants us to go back to her 5-10 yrs later, looking proud of ourselves, and she can be proud of us! i can do it! i also want everyone to be proud of me. and me proud of myself =D. okiex la, really signing off le, tatax~

what a day..
had ach today. its a great friday though there's cldds. coz today's cl is fun! haha. anyway, start with lesson 1st. finished all my corrections and worksheets. handed all of them up. feel so guai. but i always hand in all these on time. 'cept for chinese. bleahx. tralalala. had chinese. sianx. this subj is getting more and more boring. how? was just talking and drawing away. not really paying much attention. bleahx. then after that is PE! went for PE, though im still on mc =S. but its really boring to alwaes sit at the side and watch ppl play noe. last week, i went roller blading, then i fell, wonder if i hurt my back, coz 2 days later my back aches. or maybe coz i din sleep well, but the ache lasted for a few days lehx. was so scared kx. decided not to blade le. so this time i played tennis. haha. so fun! was running ard picking up balls instead of playing. lousy ma. cant even touch the ball. but i improved a lil towards the end, haha. it was fun!
after that, had geog, went through the paper. after recess had physics. sianx. listen to her beating ard the bush trying to explain one small lil concept. sianx. just let her blabber. wait till she finished, or even before she finished, i had already done my correction in a much shorter method. had enuff of her le loh. she's so doRtx! bahx. yeo is such a pain.we dun get to miss her lessons at all. even if we does, she'll try all means to exchange lesson, so that she gets to come. this is bad. starting to hate the sight of her. damn, got influenced by yuhua. haha. after that, had 2 talks in a row, one on STDs, which we have almost every year. sianx. the other one is by an ex-cedarian, who's a former miss singapore. she's the one who acted as tay pin hui's ex-wife in the 'hot siblings' or something. aiya, 'la xiong la mei' la, she's the joanne's mum. she's damn pro, an all-rounded person. suresh read out her achievements, woah. amazing! she's rep. cedar for nat track and field, javelin thrower. then she plays vball, tennis (i think), vice-cap of bball (i think), was in the debating team. aiya, a lot la. but nv mention abt her grades leh. but somehow, i think this kinda person, surely score very well too. somehow.
after the 2 long hours in the hall, went for lunch with adeline. then went for cldds. as usual, i very slack de, haha. =P. then cl divided into small groups and went to do their stuff. actually wanted to and see yq's grp de. coz my that grp a lot of prc scholars. but i decided to stay in as1 with them. the ai laoshi was with us today. she changed her hairstyle, look so much younger and nicer. and suddenly feel very qing1 jing4 to us, or maybe me. maybe coz she looked younger. haha. we were supposed to do some activities to imitate characters de. but we din wanna do, she also cant do anything. so we ended up playing games. so interesting! its those kind u need to feel de. sit in circle, then one person sit in the center, everyone must be very relaxed, and not thinking of anything. then one of those sitting on the circumference, will be very concentrated, say in her heart, "im calling u" to the one sitting in the center. the one sitting in the center is supposed to figure out who's calling her. it worked! so amazing! but it only worked for the 1st attempt. coz the other 2 who tried, weren't relaxed enuff. they were too aoxious in finding out who's calling them. actually, they shud be relaxed in order to feel it. this is amazing! must try it again! haha. then after that, we drifted away from topic, and started talking abt those funny funny things like supernatural powers, ghosts, spirits. hahaha. so fun! love it! then they talked abt wad china and taiwan.. then america. wah. getting very political loh. then we led everyone back to ghost stories again! haha. ai laoshi started telling the ju-on story. oooh, scary. wad a fun session. the most interesting this year. =D. after cl, went home. then now, dunnoe why, having headache. haix. okiex la, shall end here. today's entry seems very long, haha. tatax~

lalala~
boo~ feeling better le.. =) got back emaths paper. C6 -_-" thought i would score better than amaths. in the end, no. wadeva. a lot of careless mistakes. shows that i noe how to do. must be more careful nx time. got this question, supposed to add. my solution is, 8 + 6 + 6 + 5 = 28 (?!) its supposed to be 25 loh! throw my marks into the sea. sianx. got back history today. was soooo surprised! got a B4! the 1st time, ok! alwaes get C or below. so happy! improved! yeah. but just need one more mark to get B3. nvm, shall work harder!! yeah! did emaths and amaths correction just now. found out a lot more careless mistakes. i could have gotten 73 out of 80 for amaths loh. i noe how to do them noe! 22.5 marks worth of careless mistakes!! wth. though yuhua told me to stop counting, it'll only make me more pek cek. but just wanna find out how careless i am. for emaths, still doing corrections. dunnoe yet. but so far, i realised those questions that i thought i din noe how to do, in actual fact, i noe. haix. must try to relax. actually, i thought i very relax during the exam liaox. *shrug* lalala. coz of dear history, my L1R5 improved a lil. haha, better than nuthing. from 28 to 26! woohoo. though its not very good, but its an improvement from last year. i must work harder to get less than 15! i noe i can! ive got the potential! *motivated!*
had CE after amaths today. had a rather silly presentation by vishnu. haha. then mdm faridah came and talk to us. asked us if we feel that we've improved. can tell u that, generally, ive improved, but individually, i think i din improve a lot. mdm faridah said we'd improved slightly, but not enuff. while other classes had improved a lot. asked us for the reason. i personally feel that its majority our fault, for doing last min study and not having the right attitude and not doing enuff, not hardworking enuff to ensure our good grades. minority is due to teachers. actually, i noe we cant alwaes blame the tchrs. there's alwaes a limit to wad they can do to help us. but, human alwaes need to find excuses right? we cant totally blame ourselves too. at least i cant. if not i cant take it. i need a scapegoat. i noe i did study can liaox. just that i din study enuff.
haix. mdm faridah talked to us a lot. the class said that its the tchrs' fault, low class spirit and one more point i forgot. i think its low class spirit, which made the progress very slow and little. we're really the slow and steady bunch of ppl siax. lolx. think we shud be more enthu abt study. coz if not, things will be like so dull and boring, and make me sleepy. so we shud buck up! enthu! shud get the class motivated siax. all of them shud have gone for the adam khoo's workshop. then they'll be motivated to study! but wonder if they'll become very money minded lehx. haha. but i feel that the workshop din really work for certain ppl ard me. made me think that if she really benefited from it. she's like dun really care abt her results. i feel worried for her instead. maybe she is, but nv show. haix, dunnoe la.
bahx. yuhua gave me the FIR album today! yayx! thank you soo much! its nice! =D *muackx* *hugx* okiex la, gtg do zuo wen le, tatax~
history still rawkx my world!

nobody understands me..

got back ss/g, chem and phy. result simply sux. again. wad the hell. my L1R4 is like more than 20 already. this MYE is like sai. very sianx. ssg, expected. its not good. C6. not bad la, at least got tong qing fen, become C5. i studied for chem. i really DID. but still fail. dun see the point in studying anymore. feel like giving up. before the check of phy paper, was lavina's lesson. she came to go thru eng paper and to motivate us. she said, "u can do it!" really? i feel that im not ready for everything. all my results are like sai loh. felt like crying. but din. wth. got phy. C6. became so sianx. totally no mood le. went out of the hall. i broke down le. simply burst le loh. but at least after crying, felt much better. wad the hell. i dun wanna study le! no matter how much i study, the outcome is still the same, or worse. I GIVE UP! I CANT DO IT! i was actually quite reluctant to accept lavina's lollipop. supposedly to motivate us, to tell us we did our best. but i cant do it. shudnt be accepting it. i feel not at all prepared for wadeva is before me. getting back emaths tml. haix.
went tp to eat, more like to drink milk shake with gg and adeline la. so sorry, actually was supposed pei wendy buy present de. but was feeling moody. din wanna walk that much. after that, went home. realised i forgot to being keys. sianx. luckily my dad still at home. then he shouted at me, "if im not at home u dunnit to come in la?" i was like, "wadeva. its not as if i alwaes forget to bring keys. MUST U SHOUT?!" though i din say that out. just kept quiet. already not very shaungx liaox. stop railing at me! i feel that i cant take it anymore. si le suan le! guess this is wad they call, teens cant take pressure. dong bu dong jiu nao zi sha. i agree noe. coz me myself also liddat. maybe more like we kan bu kai. but how u expect me to kan de kai? urgx! wtf. life sux! maybe im just looking from this small lil point of view of mine. but still. cant take it means cant take it. enuff means enuff. am i asking too much from myself? am i so incapable of getting good grades? or am i not hardworking enuff? maybe im not hardworking enuff. then wad do i need to study till i become berserk, i go haywire? wad is this?! i dunnoe wad's going on in my mind. so many thoughts coming through. im going crazy. im contradicting myself! who's wrong? me? guess its me. oh wadeva. this is crazy. maybe i shud stop thinking, at least for tonight. then tml i shud start working towards my goal. but im just afraid of more setbacks. im afraid of more failures..

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haix. so looong nv type entry le. was busy with the mid-year papers. MYE ended. result was disastrous. got back amaths, hcl and eng. gosh. amaths improved, chi deproved, eng maintained.
nv in my life had i ever passed amaths exam (ok la, only had had 2 amaths exam in my life, this is the third). but i did this time, with a B4. but i still have yet to reach my target, which is an A1! guess, its still quite far away, but i'll strive for it alrighty!
chi sucked. did i mention in my previous entry that i forgot the words during the paper? wth. deproved a lot okiex. from B3 to C5. 2 grades lehx. urgx. this sux. my zao ju was disastrous. 5½ out of 15. sux. then the compre also not any better. 10½ out of 30. can just zhuang qiang suan le. haix. but the summary surprised me. got 17 out of 25. but still not good enuff. should be aiming for 20 and above. overall, the paper sux.
eng, haix. compo's mark was along ard there, so din cared much. situational writing was surprisingly good. 21 out of 30. glad. failed summary by half mark. failed compre with a score of 7 alright. its damn bad. this stupid compre dragged my result alllll the way down. haix. then the mrs foo, sooo 'nice' of her. read out our class's result, which is the worst out of the whole level. then she must comment that we're supposed to do better than 4Z, which is the 1st class in the whole level. wadeva. thnx a lot loh.
mon getting back phy paper. yeo already let out news that our class is the last. with msg 7.05. wadeva crap. we're last in everything. thnx to some tchrs, who still got the cheek to say that the class is solely responsible for the result. im not saying that we're not at fault. but its just that, we're definitely NOT solely responsible for that.. who would want lousy result, u think we'll let our result be that bad? u think we wun do anything to save ourselves? please, everyone'll think for themselves. we noe how important the Os is for us. but what can we do when we dun understand wad the tchr's talking abt? the more we ask, the complicated the explanation gets and the more confused we become. i had alwaes wanted a change in phy tchr. but just what can we do? haix. i want mr goh!! no more yeo pls!
the class wanted a change in chem tchr too. although i thought that chia's alright. although he teach from the tb, but at the very least i can understand, and wad we're tested are just from the tb, so, guess it should be alright. but of course, if we get tchrs like ms chng, it wud be better, i can understand wad she teaches more easily.
i feel that the sch is using 4C as guinea pigs. they give us all the inexperienced tchrs. then if we dun score well, we are to blame. what abt the tchrs? izzit alwaes the students fault for not doing well? izzit alwaes that we have attitude problems when we dun do well? so, its alwaes our fault, huh. even if we're worried for ourselves and ask for a change in tchr, we're still to be blame, for having attitude problems. anything that goes wrong, its us, having attitude problems.
haix. feeling so sian. got kinda scolded by goh cm the other day for not helping out the cultural exhibition. she said i needta put in more effort for cl. guess that i had sort of given up on them. maybe im lost. maybe cause i dunnoe wad to do with them anymore. or are all these just yet another excuse? haix. i dunnoe. i admit i had not been putting effort for cl. but after all those that happened, i dun feel the need of me being present anymore. everybody else being there seems to be more important than me being there. so wad's the point? haix.
wadeva