chi paper ended last sat. haix. crap. eng paper ended today. guess its better. not sure though. my language papers simply sucked. after that, went gg's house with adeline to swim. play², had fun. al went tp after swimming. i tried doing some maths. ended up getting all the wrong equations. so sucky. slacked ard a bit, till the sun not very then i left gg's house. missed so many bus. sianx. 1st, missed 159 on both sides (coz both side also can take). then went tp missed 163. wadeva. on the bus listened to discman. then started to think a lot, think of ppl and things. u can call it daydreaming. but suddenly there is this scent. very familiar. reminds me of my late grandma. miss her. felt like crying. but held back my tears since im in public. thought for very long and very hard, then i realised that it is the scent from my grandma when she was last hospitalised. maybe she came back to see me. but after so long le. thought got this thing called recarnation? not that i want her to go. but.. dunnoe how to say la. hmm. thinking of her just make me miss her more. and the more i feel like crying..
came online. downloaded the futuristic msn. walau bluff me! only got a background image that's all. the signing in pic is all the same. idiot. hmmm. think its time for study! tatax~
miss her.

hulabaloo! bored stiff. drained. had health check today. dunnit check backbone lehx. shuangx. but actually i wanna check, see whether got become a lot straighter or slightly. just wanna see my condition now. oh, nvm. then after that, din really have any lesson. went for IFD item prac. so tiring. keep making us dance and dance and dance. esp my grp, need to dance from the start of the music till the end, while the rest join in half way thru. then now i so tired! still need to study for chem test tml. sianx. though m.chia said its gonna be easy, but still need to study one ma. haix. dead beat le la. tml still got map reading test. my eyes are closing le. still need to do CE proj! think i better get going and do now. tatax~

had a nice sleep last night. guess im feeling much better. went swimming with kiat in the morning. became slightly tanner! =D ooh, im smiling =). guess that's a good sign. i think its good to go for a jog when u're feeling really down. i wanna go jogging! but stupid de doctor dun allow. i shall go jogging secretly =P. hmmm. maybe we shud really do some exercise once in a while. then will make us have a fresher mind. then can think through stuff more easily. haix. shall go do amaths le! tatax~

apr 09 was the BIG DAY, went out with adeline, gg, angela and yvette. actually wanted to go beach de, but gg wore skirt, yvette and al wore jeans.... only me and angela in beach wear. so had lunch, then strolled ard for quite sometime, couldnt decide where to go. got presents from them. a nice billabong wallet *grinx*. angela likes that wallet too! maybe shud buy that for her bday (which is like months later. hmmm), then we'll have the same wallet! haha. al and yvette bought a tee shirt for me, and guess wad? they cut holes on it! on the sleeves to be precise. and made me wear that in taka, and walk ard orchard in that! haha. met kiat's dad at taka. gosh. and i had to wear doubles layer under the hot sun and walk on the street. seeeee, bully me liddat on my bday. so meean. met jy, yvette went to pull her halter. forever doing these kinda stuff. tsktsk. later we pull her jeans down then she noes. *evil laughters*.
finally, decided to go ktv. booked a room, and went to peace centre! k-starz. new de, over there. part of it still under construction. sang till evening. so fun! then our room got cockroach!kept running ard =S. and gg kept screaming. haha. only me, gg and al sang. angela and yvette was slacking/sleeping. haha. i also went to lie down once in a while. then so cold can *hair stands*. i sang till my voice zao2 xia1. haha. so fun. sang lotsa nice songs. but 4 hours is definitely not enuff. coz din manage to sing some songs i want. hmmm. nvm. got 3 hours free de voucher. so shaungx. after that, went to eat dinner with adeline at chinatown. then went home by train. sleepy. slept my way home. then reach home, not sleepy le. stayed up till 2++ chatting, playing stupid games and doing ce proj.
woke up at 12++ on apr 10. went into depression, i think. also dunnoe y. just suddenly very sianx. have this feeling that there's a lot for me to handle. too much. bu4 zhi1 suo3 cuo4 de4 gan3 jue2. and a little emptiness. i dunnoe how to describe this feeling. its very complicated, very complexed. just very sian. went out at ard 4 liddat with preston. wanted to watch 'into the mirror'. thought it might ci4 ji1 my nerves a bit, and change my mood. budden no tix lehx. so walked ard orchard for a while, then went home le. then reached home, still very sianx!! urgxx!! hate this feeling. chatted online. hmmmmmm. really shud go beach and shout at the sea le. actually, i had nv tried that before. shall go try it out. hmmmmm. think i shud go to bed le la. tatax~
what's going on, once again, in my lifE?

tralala.. thurs was april's fool! haha, did all sorts of stuff to trick our tchrs, but they so bo chap de. nv fall for the tricks, or at least act act a bit ma. haha. instead, they tricked us kx. at 1st, we changed class with 4P, then mdm lum came. so 4P ran back. hahaha, funny lo. think we a bit boliaox leh. actually, i was very scred, coz 4P was supposed to have phy lesson and its yau's lesson ok. and its not funny to play with him lo. anyway, towards the end of emaths lesson or something, mdm lum tricked us kx. but i cant remember wad she said le la. anyway, mrs yeo also. she totally disregard that the lights are flickering. instead she asked if the lights are spoilt. lolx! when pearly was hiding inside the cupboard, switvhing on and off the lights. so not fun kx. then during recess, someone came and told angela and me that leaders' investiture rehearsal cancelled noe! in the end its another april's fool's trick. so idiotic kx. so i went to tell pearly, gg and marie that the rehearsal's cancelled. gg was like huh?! haha. so funny. but in the end still went for the rehearsal. and str8 aft that, we had our item's prac. while monitress council also having their's. african dance de music very nice kx! so i went jumping ard with the music, haha. and making myself very tired towards the end. but anyway, we finally finished the dance steps. left with bangala de. ended at ard like 6+ i reached home at ard 7+ and went to bed at ard 10+. which is quite early noe. i was sooooo tired.
nuthing much happened on friday. the usual routine. so boring. somemore got cca, which made things worse. haix. was msging preston during cca. haha. bad tongx, bad tongx =P. anyway, arranged to meet up with him to teach me physics! coz the yeo teach till i blur. asked him to fetch me, so shaung dunnit walk/take bus. haha. finally got phy stuff straighten out. then walked ard a bit. bought some stuff, and went home.
this morning woke up at 7+ got all ready and went to sch. wadeva crap lo. sat morning lehx. so sianx. got speech day. went there to listen to ppl talk, receive prizes. wah, got lotsa ppl go VJ lehx. got a no. of NJ de. haha. NJ blazer very ugly! its allll red. no offend k, its just simply wad i think. i think the seniors all very smart lehx. how? got a few from RJ, AJ, ACJ, HCJ..... all the not bad JCs la. but of course, can come back receive awards one must be not bad la. i wonder if i can come back to receive awards nort. hahahax. *grinx* feli also said that, kkt also. haha. think everyone yearns to come back proudly and tell the tchrs, "i did extremely well for Os. thankew soo much!" ba. if i ever get 10 points and below, i think i'll cry kx. *wah* i almost wanted to cry when i was waiting to receive my mt result. but aft yuhua said everyone got A1, i was so relieved..
haix, currently, im feeling very tired. of all the many tests and stuff! i feel that i got no time for many things. im sooo bad at managing time. urgxxxx!!! that stupid feeling is coming back to haunt me again!!!! urgxx! this is so irritating! sometimes i really feel like dying noe. haix.
anyway, had another cca leaders item prac today. learnt the bangala dance. practised the dance steps. went home after that. nuthing much else happened. tatax~
6 more days to the BIG DAY!

but im not excited.