DISGUSTED!!
walau, damn damn damn disgusted with singaporeans sometimes. today i went home, taking escalator to take LRT, then hor all these people just stand on the right side of it and ya STAND there leh. walau!

they think they not rushing for time then ppl at the back also not rushing for time like that! too much la. so so so selfish. if they wanna stand they should just stand on the left!

just now this auntie was in front of me, i was walking la on the right aisle, and she also did, coz i walked LOUDLY behind her so that she knows ppl behind walking, but SHE decided to stop so she did. but when she saw her LRT's here then she started running after it. (note: no one's in front of her) SO SELFISH LA! wad about ppl behind her trying to run after the LRT? because she stopped, they may just miss the train leh.

all these working class aunties only know how to TSK ppl when they dun walk, but they themselves also do this, WHAT right do they have to TSK ppl. disgusting.

anyway just now went clarke quay with the creative team to think of a plot. things didnt turn out quite well plus i needed to rush out some report intro so i came home 1st. PLUS i have dinner at home ma. haha. but i think they keep side tracking leh. like that will slow down the discussion and bring it to nowhere. but ya, in a way it is brainstorming only. aiya, better not sit in for such meetings again, anyway im not in the team ma. sh*t la, just keep forgetting, i said my role in liv is just to sing. i must constantly remind myself of that!

ok, one more suggestion, as you all write the script, or even just thinking out a plot, should also think of stage presentation, it's like thinking of the big picture, it will fasten the pace! (: coz it is always good for playwrights to visualise!

ok la, DINNER TIME! tatax~

wtf
hais, school is reopening and somehow im stuck at home. damn sian la. wanna go out also no one to go out with, how sad. can only stay home to do the stupid project. what the hell.

anyway thank you zz for helping me out! really appreciate it. and yuklum for borrowing the book for me.

someone is always there to stress me out and shout at me and no one's there to help me de-stress. walau this is the worst christmas. i hope this will be the worst ever. i hope nothing worse happen.

ya ya im a bitch. so? whatever ok.

F*CK dun wanna blog le. tatax~

walk
i love to walk, apart from taking bus. walking allows me to think think think. think about the good and the bad. think about what i should or should not have done. think about what i should have done better. think about stuff. think about you. think about life.

not that i cant do that while taking bus, but when the bus ride gets too long, i tend to fall asleep more easily. so i tend to think less. but i still d think a lot.

i like to take my own sweet time and walk walk walk. i took a very very long walk today. about 40min. i like such walks, especially when it is breezy and all. i like to slowly walk and slowly think. i walked from novena mrt to little india mrt, then i walked from sengkang mrt to my house. it should be almost an hour's walk if you add both walks up.

as i walked i thought about a lot of things but mostly about you. and as i walk i tend to get emo. i dun like to walk, because i get emo. but people tend to like to get emo, so do i. so in a way i still do enjoy walking and getting emo a lot.

but when i get emo, you will not be happy. and walking too much makes me tired.

but i do not care, i just want to walk. as i walk i wonder why i seem unimportant sometimes, as i walk i wonder what will happen to you if something bad happened to me, i braved the dark streets and alleys, hoping something happens, and wonder what your reactions will be. even getting a cold will do. but nothing happens. nothing happens when you expect it, they only happen when you least expect it.

walking too much may be giving me too much free time to think about things, that's why i'm getting more emo lately. i hate it when i get too emo. alright, i do not hate it, just do not really like it. but in a psycho way i do. especially during holidays when i have nothing better to do.

so i shall continue to walk...

sentosa
3105 pathetic outing at sentosa today, planned by darren liau. only like 4-5 ppl leh! just play frisbee the whole day. my hands all the way to shoulders and neck are all red now! better not let my mummy see!

anyway i left at ard 2pm, to bathe and all to meet yl and nick to shop for the damned green top! bought at forever21, where i met jiam! apparently jiajun was there too but i didnt see him. haha. jiam has some cool hairstyle now! (:

went to meet the usual gang at udders (novena area), supposedly for ice cream and games.. but in the end i waited for them to end game, then dinner then it got so late, none of them can decide where to go so i left 1st to come home to sleep.. bleddy tired la! in other words i did not meet my objective of going there to eat ice cream and play games.. should have just gone home after i got the green top man!

hais so now im home, got a lot of 感触 suddenly.. and im a bit hungry now, coz i only had papaya with milk for dinner.. tatax~

im damn bored
sian..... now that it's really (or maybe not) holidays for me, i got nothing to do leh, damn SAD la!

i wanna go shopping! yuklum! get back here right now this moment...... you promised to go shopping with me after my papers, now that my papers ended you're in JB! walau eh..

i wanna go out till late too! go wala anyone? timbre also can...... but i only wanna watch ngak trio, haha.. means only friday right.. ok la, anything! haha.. i damn bored i wanna go out go out go out! dun wanna be stuck at home! PIGGY!

HAIS.. ok la, shall sign off here, also got nothing to blog about. tatax~

END OF MID TERM!
yay! finally, some peaceful days.. RHT paper was like, dots lor! i just anyhow write la! didnt have the mood to really study for it. i should have really started revising RHT 1st. haha! but confirm can pass la, just how well that's all! the rest i think can do alright la. (:

seriously, the questions are not that difficult, i wonder how the bell curve will shift. unless people are really that bad that they dun understand the question at all. today before the paper, i heard this girl from china asking about a term that we should all have learnt. i mean we've gone through that during lecture and tutorial (not that she's from my class but im sure her tutorial class has gone through that as well!). i mean what the hell! no wonder jo said what she said, no wonder becky said what she said!

OK! so its over, yay! finally can join the rest and like party -GRINS-

last night i even went out with the gang for dessert, what the hell! totally disregarding the RHT paper, haha! i mean ok la, everyday after papers i've been going out, very bad very bad!

today after the paper just come home to nap then went for cousin's wedding dinner.. everyone says i look different, haha.. in a good way! bleahs.

anyway the whole dinner thing felt like sucha fake thing, like putting up an act for everyone. this place, this singapore society is full of hypocrites and ah bengs. my sis and me kept talking about this, about the background music keep looping, about the videos and all, just keep gossiping, lol!

now damn sleepy, i wanna go out till late late tmr! not like i dun go out till late late before hols, but dun care!

hais can only rest for a few days then have to do project again. stupid FOT! where got ppl make us submit project draft on 1st day sch reopen one. walau, i dun wanna work during hols also cannot leh. damn the **t**..

HAIS! better go sleep soon, anyway so long nv update again hor, i got photos updated though! do check it out (: tatax~