4 more days to results
hey, results gonna be out real soon. go to yl's blog for more details! she's got the moe website up. lols.

it seems like everyone's scared and stuff. but funny, i still am not feeling the thing yet.. the butterfly in the stomach kinda feelings. yea, dun have that yet.. bahh! well, i guess it's a good thing. haha.

so bored! nothing much to watch on tv. oscar's over. the queen won best leading actress, last king of scotland won best leading actor.. dunno their names la. but yea. it's amazing race on tv now. but erm.. not very interested..

SO SIAN! wahaha! ive yet to receive my pay for the vday work! my friend told me must wait for 3 weeeeeks! that's SO long for just a ONE day job! grr. lemme count, 3 weeks = 21 days.. 14+21=35! 35-28=7! so i'll probably receive it only on the 7th of march. huh, that's sooo long la! haha. sians.

walau, channel 8 got nothing to show, keep repeating old shows now. the he ping de dai jia is showing again! in the afternoon.. then last night they showed tian xie xing dong, really got nothing to show. oh man! monday is sucha boring day, with nothing on tv!!

oh btw, i went mark's house yday to bai nian! haha. and watch heroes! quite nice lehs! i like. but i dun have that channel. boohoo! though it's a bit x-men, but it's still cool. and disgusting la. sometimes. just, gross! urg! but HEROES so nice! i also want star world.. i used to have that channel lor. sians. coz of the previous world cup, in 2002, i think, my dad cancelled all those espn, star world.... coz scv raised price for these channels during that period of time. -cries-

ok la, actually, today really damn sian, also nothing much to blog about. and i dun think i will be going out today. so yea, shall sign off here, tatax~

whatever
fine! i cant find a job coz im fussy! happy?? u just want me to admit that right? will you just shut up and do whatever you're doing la. you're not any better. you b*tch. you're just plain irritating la! stop picking on me will you! just SHUT UP and mind your own business. so what if i cant find a job. doesnt matter to you, does it?

all you care about is your game and your comp. what right do you have to comment so much? damn you. just hate it when you comment TOO much. there's a limit alright, and you've JUST crossed it, sucker.

anyway, there are really stuff that i cant do wad! it's not like im being fussy or wad. so you really dun care.. but i dun NEED or WANT your care either. so it doesnt really matter actually. just hate it when YOU talk too much.

i just hope that i can turn off the volume of anything at my own will, like controlling a radio/computer. maybe the remote control from click will do..

oh, and im watching chingay on tv now. it's so, stupid and not nice! it just sucks!

tatax~

free labour for a day
actually it's just half a day la. in fact less than that. went hkhk in the afternoon to do some recording for laoshi for the 95.8 kids stories. the recording was smooth, plus i had little lines, so it ended as soon as it started. (ok, that's an exageration, haha.)

laoshi said im good! wahaha. ok la, shall not boast. but happy ma, kana praised. she said she'll look for me if there are other suitable roles! haha. more free labour. lols. but i dun mind la, im quite free wad. and like wad vic said, i can put these into my portfolio. and since im so free lately, maybe i should start on it. then i wouldnt hafta do last minute work again. haha.

i always liked the studio leh, the hkhk's studio, it's so cozy and nice. actually right, all studios are cozy and nice. haha. coz of all the sound proof cushioning, makes it so comfortable that you'll just feel like sleeping inside. lols.

after the recording, i walked to central, wanted to go to the world of sport or something. but it's CLOSED! i think close down already! boo. wanted to find swimming costume one lor. and instead of swimming costume, i got myself 3 pairs of earrings. lols! stupid central. always make me buy stuff. ok, my own fault. bahh!

btw, the studio technician thought that im a secondary school student. he was surprised to learn that im waiting for my As results. haha. it's good to look young. or rather ppl love it when others say tha they look younger than their actual age!

but last night, i went to watch little children with mark at cine, the person didnt check our ic leh! anyway, met sheila and yuyan there. they were having some pri6 gathering. lols.

hmmm, little children is actually quite interesting. many points to ponder upon. but i still dun understand why the title is little children.. can someone enlighten me? other than the fact that many things happened in the playground or that there are children involved, or that pedophile.. yea.

walau, just now i post this entry, but part of it got omitted! wth! and i had to retype it. and it's quite a huge part of it! and blogger is getting a lil cranky today! -irritated-

oh, anyway a bit sleepy now! just 7pm lor. haha. okay la, shall sign off here. tatax~

bored
Write down the names of twenty people you know. Then, read and answer the questions. You can't look at the questions until you write down the twenty names you're going to use. from yl's blog..

01. mark
02. sua ning
03. kiat
04. yuklum
05. christabel
06. yuhua
07. marie
08. victoria
09. pinkie
10. cheeguan
11. charlene fu
12. malcolm
13. dingjie
14. hanquan
15. sining
16. sheila
17. selena
18. colin
19. brenda
20. charlene tan

#09 a boy or a girl?
pinkie is a girl!

Would #01 and #02 make a cute couple?
mark and sua.. hahaha!

How about #18 and #04?
my brother and yuklum! probably.. lols.

What grade is #17 in?
selena got her O results this year.. is j1 now.

When was the last time you talked to #12?
talked to malcolm yesterday..

What is #06's favorite singer?
yuhua.. i dunno leh, too many. one of them is jay!

Does #01 have any siblings?
mark has a younger sister..

Would you ever date #03?
kiat! lols.. probably! she'll be such an adorable stead.

Would you ever date #07?
wahaha! why is it always a girl! marie, can la. she can protect me..

Is #16 single?
i think sheila is. but she keeps so many secrets from us. im not so sure..

What's #15's last name?
sining chua!

What's #10's middle name?
cheeguan's middle name is... chee! coz tan chee guan right? or guan, coz chee guan tan! cg has no middle name!

What's #05's favorite thing to do?
bel loves to complain about work! she likes to read also. do you like this better?

Is #13 hot?
err.. dj.. no comments!

Would #14 and #19 make a good couple?
hanquan and my sis! lols! seriously, i dunno! hahaha.

What school does #20 go to?
charlene tan goes to xinmin to do relief teaching and is currently waiting for her A level results!

Tell me a random fact about #12.
malcolm has a lot of moles!

And #03?
kiat is tiny but has a loud voice!

Have you ever had a crush on #15?
sining?! no! haha. probably some other ppl.. lols.

Where does #09 live?
pinkie's rich and stays in clementi.. cant remember exactly which road but is some 3 storeys bungalow!

What's #04's favorite color?
yl's fav colour is PINK!

Would you make out with #18?
crazy! he's my brother!!

Are #05 & #06 best friends?
bel and huaa noes one another, but they are not best friends..

Does #07 like #20?
erm, i dun think marie likes charlene.. haha. =X

Does #08 like #19?
vic doesnt noe my sis, so i dun think so..

How did you meet #02?
sua, hkhk lor!

How did you meet #12?
malcolm, ajchoir!

Does #10 have any pets?
cheeguan has a dog!

Is #12 older than you?
nope, malcolm is younger than me by a few months..

Is #17 the sexiest person alive, or what?
selena ah, depends, i guess. haha.


huh, no more already ah. so sian.. lols!

visitings
mark came over yesterday morning, then we went to bel's place with yl and malcolm. had popiah. was disastrous la. not for the girls, but the guys. or rather mark. haha. malcolm's 2nd popiah looked delicious, lols! after that, mark went off and the rest went to my place, and i had to keep my poor cat. she kept meowing in the kitchen.. played daidee, bridge and hearts. malcolm left and the rest of us stoned and slacked. and finally decided to join mark and friends in amk.

went town after that for notes on a scandal.. there were 8 of us, i think. yea. had dinner then watched the movie. quite nice la. cate blanchett's pretty. her eyes are so blue.. i shall not talk about the details la, 'cept that barbara covett (judi dench) is a pervert with fetish for younger women. she just wanna ruin their life. and that her definition of friendship is SO scary. if i were her friend, and i saw her true colours, i wouldnt noe wad to do. just scary la. she's just mentally ill.

went home after that. tired! although we didnt do much yesterday, but it was somehow quite tiring. i guess it is more tiring for the rest since they have work today. oops. haha. =X oh well.

i have rehearsal at hkhk later and i almost forgot about it. in fact im quite lazy to go. but i must drag myself there. rahh. i guess ive got used to slacking soo much already. bleahs.

alrighty, shall sign off here.. tatax~

恭喜发财，红包拿来！
农历新年又到啦！祝大家有个快乐的新年，有多多的红包！！过年赌博，横财滚滚来！(:

这个新年显得特别忙，尤其是我的老妈。不过，还算过得开心，只是有时会觉得有一点sian。就好像初一在我四叔的家时，还真是闷，没事做，只能坐在一旁发呆，偶尔应酬一下亲戚，偶尔跟我的堂妹打眼色，gossip一下。之后就真得没什么可做的了。当全部人都走了以后，就有位坐，有电视看了。有harry potter看！-开心-

初二（也就是今天）也不错啦，赌博！不过输了$1.20，sian。不过之前输更多，算翻了一点本。哈哈。ok啦！捞鱼生，吃火锅！-幸福- 哈哈。

哦，对了，除夕夜，吃了晚饭后，就开始唱卡拉OK，唱了超多的老歌！都是英文的。哈哈。唱到凌晨十二点多才回家。

过了这么‘充实’的3天，有一点累，有一点想睡觉。哈哈！明天将会是另一个充实的日子！红包越多，就会觉得越充实！哈哈，没办法，人是现实的！

好吧！希望大家的新年都跟我的一样充实！哈哈。tatax~

shopping trips and random stuff
hmmm, lemme see, didnt do much on vday, went for the one day job assignment, took train from expo to raffles place, that's all. then go home already. but havent got my pay yet! zzz. went home after that, then went to rivervale mall at night with my mum and grandma to shop. bought 2 pairs of slippers. heh.. but we went out damn late again. always like that leh, i almost didnt wanna go.

after that, watched american idol (top 24 are finally out) followed by simple life. quite boring. nothing much on tv.

went hkhk the nx day to help jalyn laoshi with her interview. some journalist wanted to interview her la. so yea. went to help, then had a short little rehearsal with vic. it was not bad la.

went compass point to meet my mum and grandma after that. ya, shopping again! but so late le lor, by the time we were done at metro, most shops were already closed/closing. and after we went breadtalk, the mall was quite dark already. hur hur..

was supposed to meet yl and bel the nx day (fri) at amk hill macs for breakfast, then we'll stroll to aj for the new year concert. BUT everyone overslept. plus bel backed out, so none of us went back. instead, we met at ard 1pm at tp for lunch! haha. bathed my cat before going off. haha, quite fun..

mark came after our lunch. he doesnt noe where's koufu! walked ard tp, shopped a bit here and there. but there were nothing much to buy la, actually. couldnt find any nice skirt. but i bought a pair of earrings for $2 and a tee for $5 though! haha. bleahs. it was the last day of the pasar malam, so the tee's price dropped from $11.90 to $5! haha. see how much profit they earned before the price fell!!

went town after that, went far east. but it was SO crowded la. dun feel like shopping already, need to squeeze here squeeze there.. went to the outdoor macs nx to lido to rest after that. sat there and stone and feel sleepy.. went taka's pepper lunch for dinner. then went esplanade area with mark to walk ard while bel and yl went home..

slept quite late last night, now i still feel very tired. haha. shall sign off here la, tatax~

sian
我说到做到，说要用中文来blog，就真的用中文来blog。哈哈，现在有一点空闲。应该说是非常空闲吧。没办法，我还是个无业游民嘛！我也不想啊！好啦，我去帮我的mummy包饺子！其实，不是饺子啦，是那种炸的，可是我不知道华语叫什么，只知道在广东话里，那个叫什么，所以咯！too bad！好啦，一会儿再继续！

原本要出去的，可是我得老妈弄这个，弄那个，弄到很晚，还我都没心情出去了。hai！

好啦，也没什么好写得了，今天就写到这儿。tatax！

Hard To Say I'm Sorry
Everybody needs a little time away
I heard her say
From each other
Even lovers need a holiday
Far away
From each other

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to stay

After all that we've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise to
And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me
I can't let go

Couldn't stand to be kept away
Just for the day
From your body
Wouldn't wanna be swept away
Far away
From the one that I love

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to know
Hold me now
I really want to tell you I'm sorry
I could never let you go

After all that we've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise to
And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me
I can't let go
After all that we've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise to

You're gonna be the lucky one

-Chicago

my new mattress!
failed my interview today. i think. sian! grrr. i'll not repeat the detail. basically today just isn't a very nice day la. some not so nice incidents here and there also..

but i went back to ajchoir. it at least brightened up my day a little. it's fun as always. with all the funny ppl to look and laugh at. had my fair share of fun! ((: and im confirm going for the choir camp! heehee!

went out with my family yesterday, bought 3 mattresses for the 3 of us! yay, nice and new, with the new mattress smell in my room now. but i accidentally cut my own mattress while opening the plastic. sian! my dad said i have 乞丐命, grrr. but my nice sis helped me sew the cutting. yay! as good as new! and with love! haha. but we carried the mattresses home, carry until my arms muscles are aching now! zzz. too long nv exercise le. hahaha. after that went to look at sofas. and my dad bought a wooden one! oh man. not that it's not nice or wad, but 坐久了, 屁股会痛! so yeah. but i guess, that's a way to prevent certain ppl (no, im not talking about myself) from sleeping in the living room and wasting the money on the new mattress! haha =X. but i had a really really nice sleep last night! (: (other than lack of sleep today, due to sleeping late..) my mummy wanna buy me new pillow too! yay. everything new for this coming cny! -SMILES-

ok la, nothing much to blog about. maybe the next entry shall be in chinese! lols. shall sign off here.. tatax~

Death
If people lived for ever - if they never got older- if they could just go on living in this world, never dying, always healthy - do you think they'd bother to think hard about things, the way we're doing now? I mean, we think just about everything more or less - philosophy, psychology, logic. Religion. Literature. I think if there were no such thing as death, that complicated thoughts and ideas like that would never come into the world. I mean -

I mean... this is what I think, but... people have to think seriously about what it means for them to be alive here and now because they know they're going to die sometime. Right? Who would think about what it means to be alive if they were just going to go on living for ever? Why would they bother? Or even if they should bother, they'd probably just reckon, 'Oh, well, I've got plenty of time for that. I'll think about it later.' But we can't wait till later. We've got to think about it right this second. I might get run over by a truck tomorrow afternoon. And you, Mr Wind-up Bird: you might starve to death. One morning three days from now, you could be dead in the bottom of a well. See? Nobody knows what's going to happen So we need death to make us evolve. That's what I think. Death is this huge, bright thing, and the bigger and brighter it is, the more we have to drive ourselves crazy thinking about things.

From "The Wind-up Bird Chronicle" words by May Kasahara


i've finally finished the book! this is another passage from the book. i thought it was rather interesting and it makes sense, even though you may say it's a warp kinda thinking. bleahs!


The Revolving Door
Maybe the world was like a revolving door, it occurred to him as his consciousness was fading away. And which section you end up in was just a matter of where your foot happened to fall. There were tigers in one section, but no tigers in another. Maybe it was as simple as that. And there was not logical continuity from one section to another. And it was precisely because of this lack of logical continuity that choices didn't mean very much. Wasn't that why he couldn't feel the gap between one world and another? But that was as far as his thoughts would go. He wasn't able to think more deeply than that...

another paragraph from "The Wind-up Bird Chronicle"


yep, in fact it's just half a para. the rest seemed irrelevant to the revolving door thing. sounds interesting too. at least to me. it's more like talking about the changes in time actually, like one second this thing was here, the next second it was gone. just like the chips more advertisement, now you see it, now you dun! kinda thing. yea.

and another thing that haruki murakami kept talking about in the book was that when you keep thinking about something, or that you concentrated too much on it, after some time, you may just lose track of it. like you may start hallucinating, like if that something really happened, or maybe it didnt happen, it's just your imagination. if you keep dwelling on such matters, i think you'll go mad! haha.

oh well! sometimes i dun really noe wad im talking about also. bleahs! ok la, shall sign off here, tatax~

INTERVIEWS!
haven't been blogging for the past 3 or 4 days.. was quite lazy. or not really la. i was either working on cg's script or helping out with the chores at home. i'm SO GUAI! -smiles-

hmmm, let's see.. nothing happened actually. except for today! suddenly very perked up and started looking for jobs. online.. haha. and guess wad? suddenly got like 3 interviews. wow. went for one just now. but it's recruit express one. so maybe, not counted. haha. but that agent helped me send my resume to 2 companies already. wow! actually got one more, can straight away start work. not really straight away, but on monday la. but it's at bugis(no very near!) and need to work OT almost EVERYDAY! although there's OT pay la. but almost everyday leh. it'll be damn tiring lor. AND it's a 3months' assignment. 3months in this kinda living condition, i think i'll die la. although OT pay, i like. but, the original pay only 5bucks an hour. ok la, not that i have anything about it. but long working hours lor! bleahs! so shall wait some more!

and then, am supposed to have another interview today, but that person last minute postpone. she said she'll call me again nx week, coz her client's on leave next monday. maybe it's a lie. she's not gonna call me anymore!

but fret not! i still have one more interview on monday! but it's at 9am! time to adjust my body clock man! haha. it's at recruit express again! but the difference is that, im trying out for the post of a recruit agent! muahaha! coolio. so, yuklum! if you're outta job by march, and IF i get this job, you can come and find me! heeheehee. let me earn some commission wun die right! lols. i think the pay's ALRIGHT, it's 50bucks flat rate per day. plus 10-25bucks of commission fee for every case closed. not bad right? even if i dun get anything done, i still get 50bucks! or at the very most, get fired. lols. so fun! i was observing those ppl while waiting at recruit express just now. seems like quite an easy job lehs. just do job matching. maybe it's not as easy as it seems la. but if they are willing to take me, im more than willing to give it a shot! i just dun wanna do OT! hahaha. like that i'll miss all my favourite shows! not that there are a lot. but yea..

ok la, i've typed sooo much! lols. OH! i wanted to buy that racer back from giordano! but i cant find the green i want! the green i saw in town! raffles place and compass point dun have it! they have an ugly green whichi i dun like. note i used the word ugly! i saw that top with bel! oh btw, i saw sharon kaur at compass point giordano, shopping with her mum. and she laughed at me, coz she found that im still jobless (and she's not). haha! idiot.

ok la, so much written, shall start new entry on somehting else! haha. tatax~

meow
mmm, stupid msn is down. am on ebuddy now. sucks. anyway, was surfing SPCA website just now, and i realised im starting to like cats more. hmmmm, wonder if it has anything to do my cat. and come to think of it, my cat still doesnt have a name. as in really a name for it. coz it just got many many nicknames from me. haha.

i love to stroke her back when she's sleeping. she will purrr. ((: ok la, i admit, i just love to disturb ppl in their sleep. XP haha. bleahs. just woke my cat from her sleep. haha. X)

quite bored. didnt hunt for a job today. am lazy! BUT i didnt wake up at 12nn today. woke up at 11am. improvement! yay. shall wake up earlier everyday. tune my body clock back to normal.

hana kimi ep12 isnt out yet. sian. was thinking of entertaining myself by watching it. seems like i'll have to wait some more.

it's almost 2.30pm now. and im still waiting for my lunch.. lunch! my mummy's not home yet. X(

ok la, shall finish my book. tatax~

irritating
was forced to switch to new blogger. not that i hate it or whatever. i noe it will not change my blog. but then, i just dun like changes. my dashboard and all look different now. i dun like it. grrr. stupid blogger! force me to change. zzz.

but one thing good about it is that i can post chinese now. yay. oh well. it may be due to fact that i took out some stuff from my template also lor. oh wadeva! nvm. stupid blogger. so not used to it now.

oh btw, singapore won the asean cup! haha. was quite a boring match lehs. at least i thought it was. other than commenting on how the thais were acting and all. it was quite boring. yl, malcolm and bel came over to watch. so nice to watch with more ppl. more fun (:

ok, shall sigh off now. tatax~

sorry, i didnt mean to do or say those things. i just couldnt help it sometimes.

我想要说
看着右手被撕裂的伤口
爱好像曾经停留
而我左手按下号码之后
那首属于我的歌不再播送

默写你的爱过
坦承自己脆弱
对白怎么说
表情才不难过

我想要说 我想要说
如果没有了你
我该如何往下走
那一秒钟有没有发现我
倔强里的问候
怎么劝我放手
在这一切之后

整夜的风冷得我手颤抖
你在温暖的那头
熟悉路口再一次的路过
等在那角落的人已不是我

默写你的爱过
坦承自己脆弱
对白怎么说
表情才不难过

我想要说 我想要说
如果没有了你
我该如何往下走
那一秒钟有没有发现我
倔强里的问候
怎么劝我放手
在这一切之后

我想要说 我想要说
如果没有了你
我该如何往下走
那一秒钟有没有发现我
倔强里的问候
怎么劝我放手
在这一切之后

怎么劝我放手
在这一切...

-蔡旻佑

Welcome To The Black Parade
When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.

He said, "Son when you grow up,
would you be the savior of the broken,
the beaten and the damned?"
He said "Will you defeat them,
your demons, and all the non-believers,
the plans that they have made?"
"Because one day I'll leave you,
A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join The Black Parade."

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said, "Son when you grow up,
would you be the savior of the broken,
the beaten and the damned?"

Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.
And other times I feel like I should go.
And through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.
And when you're gone we want you all to know.

We'll carry on,
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I can't contain it
The anthem won't explain it.

A world that sends you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all.
So paint it black and take it back
Let's shout it loud and clear
Defiant to the end we hear the call

To carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches

On and on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers
Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause I could not care at all

Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part
I won't explain or say I'm sorry
I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer for all the broken
Listen here, because it's who we are
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who had to sing this song
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
I! don't! care!

We'll carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches on

Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)

Do or die, you'll never make me (We'll carry on)
Because the world will never take my heart (We'll carry on)
Go and try, you'll never break me (We'll carry)
We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)

-My Chemical Romance