sigh..
another boring day's coming to an end..

anyway, watched happy birthday (hb) on monday. it wasnt as nice as i thought. bleahs! felt cheated. should have watched gridiron gang instead. but gridiron doesnt show everywhere like hb.. so yea. so bahh.. but louis koo's so shuai! haha X)

watched requiem on tuesday. wow, 2 movies in 2 days! haha. requiem is a german show, about exorcism. but it's not those typical horror movie. coz it's not scary at all. but it's more realistic. it's sense of scary is not as in those BOO kinda scariness (yea, yea no such word), but coz it seems real, that's why it's scary. -scary- when you see michaela (the female lead) screaming at her mother when she was possessed. scary to point you'd wanna cry. or at least i did. but of course, being the skeptical me, i'll question the plot la. maybe the girl's really being too superstitious or wadeva the right word is, actually, she's not possessed. she complains that she hears things that's why she collapsed. maybe that's just an excuse, a smoke screen to prevent others from thinking that her illness (yes, she has epilepsy in the show) is back? or maybe it's stress because it's her 1st sem in university? you know there are many possibilities.. but maybe by getting the help of priests makes her feel better, safer, that's why in the end she got better?

but then again, yea, maybe she's really possessed. haha. the whole movie was quite monotonous until the 'demons' came.. just like hb, so monotonous. but it was an alright movie. i mean, i watch anything ma. so yea. haha. XP

anyway, it's quite cool to watch movie in the afternoon during weekdays. coz not much ppl will be free then, so the cinema theatre is almost empty! so basically, you'll feel as if you own the whole theatre. haha. reminds me of the time i watched minority report with kiat and arvin, in the morning at tp cinema. the theatre was empty as well. so shiok! ((:

yesterday mark told me that aloy told him that i've agreed to go and watch soccer tonight. haha. so funny. i didnt even noe about it. but yea, i am going to meet to watch soccer tonight! singapore vs thailand! must go. but we have no tickets, so we're going to some macdonalds to watch. bleahs. better than nothing. and sunday too! -grins-

and actually, i've been attempting to post some chinese stuff here, but i realised that my blog cant post chinese characters! they'll appear to be questions marks! this is so irritating. and i dunno what's the problem. changed the font and everything but still cannot. how how how? wanna post lyrics, wanna post stuff in chinese. grrrr. nvm!

BORED! shall get ready to meet them all, though i think there are only yl, aloy and me. probably dj, that's the most. lols. tatax~

how much do you know?
We can invest enormous time and energy in serious efforts to know another person, but in the end, how close can we come to that person's essence? We convince ourselves that we know the other person well, but do we really know anything important about anyone?

a paragraph from The Wind-up Bird Chronicle by Haruki Murakami. haik! been reading his books again. i totally agree with that btw. in fact i'll think about such questions once in a while. but not so much of other ppl, but rather myself. how much do i know about myself. no one really know themselves very well, so how can you know other ppl even better? that's impossible.

coz it's like ppl will tell you things like, "hey, you're always saying this and complaining that.." then will you realise that you are indeed always saying this and complaining about that.. so ppl around you sometimes help you realise your habits, help you learn about yourself. but that is just one side, one perspective of you. no one can fully understand another person. no one can confidently say that i know another person inside out.

oh well, im still reading that book, it's so super thick! lols. btw bel, i didnt finish the kite runner.. lols. X) ok, so long, tatax~

hana kimi & racist jokes
started watch hana kimi yesterday since i was realy bored to tears. no news of jobs! sians. oh well. shall continue to wait. but it's gonna be the so-called next week like the day after tomorrow! they wun be calling on a sunday surely. and they want me to be able to start work on monday. wth! does that mean i dun get both jobs?! SIAN! so i'm still jobless?? hrmph..

but yea, back to hana kimi, it's SO NICE! oh man, everyone should just watch it la! haha. channel u's gonna show it soon. so everyone can watch! how thoughtful. lols! ella's soooo cute! and the da shu guy who claims he can see spirits, he's damn funny la. hahaha. love it man! just laugh till you pengx.. but some parts also quite touching la. i dunno if it's me or the show, but i just tear everytime ella does. bleah! ): but wu zhun is SO SHUAI! and so sweeeet la. i also wanna be secretly protected like that. at the end of the day, when you find out all about it, you'll feel damn xing fu!!

went for alumni prac in the morning, then went tp lib with cg to stone and read books until 5+. went for dinner and went to hkhk for practice! it was alright la. not say VERY good. but it isnt too bad either. average lor. just a bit not focused today. keep on digressing! like whenever i stop them to talk, somehow we'll digress. nvm, i'll ren for now. but if it really slow everything down, i may just explode ok. be prepared.. the legendary assistant, heard that? lols.

came home after that. heard sg won the match tonight. not bad! (: gerald showed me a clip on youtube. it's some racist joke la. some ppl went rk house, ordering for pork. and they recorded the sound. i think i heard yl or someone talked about it. gerald told me very funny, sure laugh. but i thought it isnt very funny and it isnt very nice to do such things lor. i mean it's SO RUDE la. and childish! and to think ppl find it funny. something must be really wrong. it's sooo rude la. in fact i felt a bit angry after listening to it. those guys are just a bunch of idiots la.

yea i admit i may be a bit racist sometimes, but who isnt. just admit it lor. i mean like, no harm. but we shouldt go round laughing at certain beliefs they have what! it's so rude and childish and totally boliao la. some more, like wad textbooks always say, we live in a multi-racial country, we should learn to live in harmony, live cohesively together, and not stir things up like this. i think these ppl are quite stupid lor. just bth them.. same to those who find such jokes funny.

bleah! i go watch hana kimi le! tatax~

more interviews
woah.. and i went for 2 interviews in 2 days! didnt do much on monday la. i cant remember wad i did even. lols. just slacked my day away. didnt even bother practicing my cantonese.

so yea, tues afternoon, went for the interview at shenton way. mmm, it's next to Lau Pat Sat (let's call it LPS for short).. i almost couldnt find it leh, even though it is JUST next to LPS.. haha. oh well! but i found it anyway. went there, interviewed..... but then, i forgot to ask about whether there's cpf. aiya, those criitcal questions i didnt ask la! grrr. then they tested my chinese typing speed and my ability to read traditional chinese. like oral like that. haha. then they tested my cantonese! which was the worst part. coz that guy said my canto very local.. and some pronunciation not accurate. haha. oh well. wad can i do? accents cant be changed! but he said it shouldnt be a problem, coz i can type. so yea. i guess it's fine then. but how come they nv test my ang moh typing speed? it's a lot faster than my chinese la. haha. bleahs!

so yea, i thought the interview went well, other than the fact that i didnt ask some critical questions. and i decided not to repeat the same mistakes today. and i went to see mark and the puppy! haha. so adorable! the puppy that is. haha. max.. lols! but cute ah. just a lil too friendly.. but im fine with it. (:

then i went ida for interview today. was almost late. i was just a few minutes early. but the interview lasted for like less than 5 min la! wth. and that guy asked me about my cca and nothing else.. and my cca has nothing to do with the job scope! hurr.. he just has nothing better to ask lor. sians! then just like that i went off to hkhk for practice.

the interview sucked la. just made me feel quite sian. but the good thing is, the practice went quite well! smiles and a big clap for everyone! yay! it was a lot better today. ((: we ended slightly before 8 and we went for dinner after that. was quite full.. mmmm. then came home.

oh well! shall just wait or them to call me. and i'll have nothing to do for the rest of the week 'cept for alumni practice and another production practice after that. hohoho, how eventful! sian. maybe i'll go and visit max tml! haha. oh well, shall sign off now! tatax~

stuff other than interviews
lunched at some hong kong kitchen at thomson yesterday, after alumni prac. i realised alumni ppl loves to go thomson. haha. oh well. food was alright, but the sesame paste not very nice, a bit watery only laa.. haha.

went hkhk for production practice after that. BUT it was merely 4 when i left thomson, and my production prac is like 6pm.. lols. but i went there anyway. spent some time at tp library. and strolled to hkhk. BUT im still damn early. it's like 5.41pm.. lols. quite proud of myself! smiles.

and since it started pouring, everyone was like LATE! we started one hour late. wad the.. but anyway, sua the legendary assistant finally turned up! haha. the whole thing ended at ard 9pm. i thought the practice was quite fuitful, and sua contributed, smiles. haha. so yay! big clap for everyone! went home after that. was damn tired la. actually, i was feeling sleepy the whole day. zzz.

woke up at ard 8 this morning but still ended up late for the morning prod prac. ooops. sorry. i also dunno why. but yea. i think i woke up at 8 la. maybe i woke up at 9. lols, so i actually slept more than sua? haha. anyway, today's prac was like. eww. bad! i dunno la, everyone was just ai mai ai mai lor. maybe it's unfair to say that about everyone, but yea.. the energy level was damn low. shall keep my comments short here. haha.

went for lunch after that. kiat headed home. the younger ones needta rush back to hkhk. wait, i sound old like that. correction, the jin tuan ppl needed to rush back. so sua and i (yes, English Teacher!) didnt go with them. lunched at mos, ate and talked for about 2 hours? it's quite long, since it's like 2 person and not a group. lols. btw, sua, i didnt talk about the prac last week, coz of some incident.. i guess i wrote it down in my journal/told someone about it instead. oops!

after that i suggested going home. and guess wad? i met peifen! the 933's peifen! and ding zhiyong! waved to her. haha. she's so friendly! she waved back lehs! so nice. but the zhiyong only smile. haha. this year's golden mic award dun vote for him k! vote for peifen! lols.

this is like one of the most exciting moments in these 2 days. well not really very excited la, but you see some celebrity ma. haha. sorry for being some typical singaporean, but i am one wad!

then went to see poor mark.. who met with an accident. ): but you have the company of a puppy now k! so dun complain.. bleahs! i also want a puppy......

ok la, shall sign off here, tatax~

jobs jobs jobs
hmmm, more job opportunities! some agent called today, ask if i wanna work for swarovski, as acct cum admin assistant. they dun mind fresh 'A' level students like me. but it's quite far lor, at tiong bahru. but she kept asking me take. i mean im fine la. the pay's alright, $5.80 per hour, but may deduct cpf. and! it's just a 2weeks-1month assignment. so short lor. haha. sians. but she keep asking me to take the job! coz i got no exp, now that ppl MAY want me, i shud go. idiot, she just want her commission la! haha. but ok la, i need to eat, she also need to eat. so i said ok.

and my sis's IDA friend called. and i sent in my resume already. whee. i'd prefer here or the dutch company one, rather than the swarovski. though it's crystal leh! but im not even dealing with those crystals. it's numbers that im dealing with. haha. bleahs!

wow, all seems like big companies leh! haha. good. heehee. now im just waiting for them to call. a bit lazy to continue the job search today. maybe i started out too enthusiatic, that's why the energy is burning out fast. lols. -tired-

ok la, nothing much already.. so sian, waiting for them to call. signing off! tatax~

more interviews?
haha. sry, but so far, i can only talk about interviews and busy sending resumes these few days wad! lols. i mean like, there's really nothing much to talk about! bleahs. i hate job searching. there always something you wanna do (or maybe it's just me), but you somehow dun meet the requirements, be it the qualification or requirements. bahh. irritating!

and yea, i went for the super short interview yesterday at recruit express. you know, i dun think ppl really dun wanna help you. coz at these places right, as long as they managed to get ppl a job, they get money! so they'll be more than willing to help you look for a job. afterall, they need to jia beng one wad! right? so dun be so negative about all these agencies, about how they'll nv find you a job. i mean they are nice ppl la. at least they sound nice to me. so it's good enough! ((: i mean, i think we should be more positive la, if not we'll really not be able to find jobs. this is a message for all those STILL jobless now.. haha. but im not promoting those job agencies la! they didnt pay me, why should i! just saying a piece of my mind.

so yeap, after the interview, me and bel walked around taka a bit, saw this normal looking tank top, but it's SEVENTY-NINE BUCKS! wad the hell! haha. bel is the 1st person who said i dun look nice in caps! hmmmmm.. but it's nice having her around. she helps me save money! wadeva i touch or show some interest in, she'll gimme some negative comments, until i dun feel like buying it. and that's good, i can save money! hahaha.

after that, we went back to aj. then quite boring actually. nothing much to do, just stone around, laugh at juniors, think that's all. went home after stoning in the choir room for some time.

so yea, quite a tiring day. must be bacause i was in heels. and my legs got soo tired! it's still soring a bit now. haha. im not complaining. only have myself to blame. bleahs.

woke up, feeling DAMN sian. just dun feel like looking for a job already. the energy is burning out! it's good that bel can hold on for so long. and she just found a job! cheers! i am.. close to getting one!! haha. i think.

let's see, i didnt send a lot of resumes today, coz i got quite sian. and there arent a lot of available jobs. but i found one today. they need temp customer service officer who can converse in cantonese! woohoo! and i sent my resume. haha. then that person called quite soon after that. and she kept asking if i can really speak cantonese fluently. she said i'll get tested and stuff. coz i need to talk to hk clients and stuff, able to read traditional chinese into cantonese, in normal speaking speed. she even demo the kinda speed im supposed to speak in. quite funny. i kept telling her shouldnt be a problem. ya, i think can. should be okay. that's why she also very unsure. hahaha. maybe im ruining my own opportunity la. but she made it sound so scary! but anyway, ya, she said she'll send my docs in for them consider. if im shortlisted, she'll inform me for interview. SMILES! the pay's not bad lor, $6.50/hr, at shenton way, 5days week.. i like!

and another one, from my sis's friend.. at IDA's call centre. it's a half govt-based company. so it shud be quite good also. she told me to wait for them to call me la. so im waiting. it's at suntec. expensive food sia! i'll prefer working at shenton way. though suntec is nearer. but yea. shenton way, got yuklum ard lehs. when her temp job ends, mine shud be ending also. haha! wah, yuklum's face damn big. cannot, she'll become bhb like that, i better stop! haha!

then yea, that's about it, i think. then yuklum said she'll ask her cousin for job also. so yea, hopefully. will continue to keep a lookout for jobs.. heh. smiles and pray and cheeer for me!! heehee.

ok la, shall sign off le. tatax~

job interviews
wahaha! in the end i cancelled the acjc interview.. coz 1stly, it's damn far! but i dun mind going la. coz im already bathed and almost ready to go. but then, i called there and found out that, it's some saturday&sunday classes thingie. i dunno wad kinda classes they are la. but they are one sats and suns! sats and suns are for my productions! and going out one lor. so in the end i cancelled it. bleahs. if only it isnt during weekends, i would have gone for it. i mean it's classes leh, sounds interesting enough to me. i will be taking a class after following (sorta like a trainee) another teacher or something for a period of time. bleah! sians. so im still jobless.

but anyway, i've another interview tml afternoon at recruitexpress! not that it is anywhere more promising, coz it's those agencies, and in the end, u'll still hafta wait and wait and wait. but better than nothing! it's for some clinic assistant job! sounds like another interesting job. but my immune system quite weak lehs. but NVM! just go for it lor, after all, if i fall sick, im sure a handsome doctor will be around for me! haha. fun fun! some more clinics are not always packed what! and they are looking for temps. so, good la!

the recruitexpress person, lynn, asked if i have any accounts background. sadly, NO! if i have, i think i can take one more jobs. all those accounts assistant, blah blah. coz it seems like more ppl are looking for a/c assis rather than admin! i mean there are admin, but less compared to a/c. but yea. nvm..

and, because today's interview is cancelled, i can watch let it shine! muahaha. i thought i'll miss it lehs. and it's gonna start soon, in about 10min time! tralala. im so hungry now! my mummy's not home yet, means i wun have dinner soon! bahh. OH! and i submitted a form to IRAS for temp data entry clerk. haha. hope they need some, and they'll consider me! government dept lehs. looks nicer in future resume!

oh man, my headache is here again. sucks leh. i seriously need to look for my headache pill (not panadol). haha. oh well, shall sign off now! tatax~

enneagram
got the webbie from bel's blog.. the result shows that i'm a Type 4: The Artist/Romantic. The intuitive, reserved type.

Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.

How to Get Along with Me
Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.
Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.
Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.
Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.
Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!

What I Like About Being a Four
my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
my ability to establish warm connections with people
admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life
my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor
being unique and being seen as unique by others
having aesthetic sensibilities
being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me

What's Hard About Being a Four
experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair
feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved
feeling guilty when I disappoint people
feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me
expecting too much from myself and life
fearing being abandoned
obsessing over resentments
longing for what I don't have

Fours as Children Often
have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original games
are very sensitive
feel that they don't fit in
believe they are missing something that other people have
attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.
become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood
feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)

Fours as Parents
help their children become who they really are
support their children's creativity and originality
are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings
are sometimes overly critical or overly protective
are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed

Four in Love
Living with Fours:
-Remember that Fours feel that something is missing. Others have what's missing. Focused on the quality of feeling in other people's relationships, the Four worries: "They have it. I don't."
-You can easily be dismayed by your Four's attraction to the distant and the unavailable, positive attention to whoever is missing: the ghostly lover, the distant friend, the unfulfilled dream.
-Count on complex relating. Nothing is simple. Depth is the goal rather than fun.
-Expect impatience with the "flatness" of ordinary feeling. "Surely there is more than this." Relating is intensified by sabotage, suffering, and dramatic acts.
-For Fours the present seems unreal. All relating is building toward the emergence of the "real" self through the agency of love. The ultimate disclosure, the transcendent moment, the reawakening of the soul.
-It's always showtime: mood, manners, luxury, and good taste as a setting for relationship. Unique self-presentation compensates for inner feelings of deprivation. The art form of keeping feelings contained. Conversational innuendo, aesthetic distance, the implication of a special glance. Relating through romantic idealization.
-For Fours, it's the pursuit not the happiness that matters: a refined and bittersweet emotional sensibility. A mood of melancholy. Love is many layered and goes through many phases. The stages of letting go are unusually slow.
-Fours sweetly reminisce about people from the past and focus on lovers, experiences yet to come. Attention on present opportunities are weak and intermittent.
-Push-pull habit of attention. The Four's focus turns to your negative aspects when you are present and to positive aspects with the safety of distance.
-This way of paying attention reinforces the Four's feelings of abandonment and loss, but also lends itself to:
Sensitivity to your emotional states and the ability to support you when you suffer pain.

Four at Work
In the Workplace:
-Wants distinctive work. A job that calls for creativity, even genius, an eccentric edge in presentation, a unique approach to business life.
-Must feel respected in the workplace for personal vision and ideas.
-Efficiency is tied to mood. Attention gets displaced from tasks when emotional life takes over. Can sabotage business life over a love affair.
-Wants to be connected to special authority, to those in the field who stand for quality rather then popularity.
-Feels demeaned by plebeian work, the definition of which is different for every Four. Gardening can be work for plebs. So can being a CEO.
-Feels called to emotionally intense lines of work: grief counselor, animal rights activist, the suicide hot line late at night.
-Aggressive and cutting toward competitors or peers in the same field. Attracted to successful people outside his or her own sphere of interest.
-Does not flourish in a work environment that requires close cooperation with others who are more skilled, more valued, or better paid.



wahh, mostly quite true. and there are actually more to it. if i were to copy and paste all, you'll get damn bored. i think this amount is already getting boring. so yea, some parts i dun understand, some arent really true. most are so true la.. sob. that's why i feel so miserable. haha.

anyway, i'm getting quite serious with job searching. and i've sent so many resumes! not really that a lot. but yea, at least i've started sending resumes. and i'm getting an interview tml!! whopdeedop! but it's all the way at acjc lehs! thanks! marie, gave me that email, so i just sent. applying for admin assistant. dang. in acjc?! i nv knew. sians. but oh well, shall just go for the interview 1st. better than nothing. but i cant really remember how to go lor. kiat! haha. hmmm, shall call that place tml and look for the aunty wendy and see wad's the job scope like =X. interview seem scary! and it always make me nervous. when that guy called me just now, i got so kan cheong la, coz he sounded so rush, and speaks so quickly. zzz. makes me nervous. then i didnt catch certain info. heard it's some sports complex in ac. but how to do admin there? pe dept admin? haha! bahh. why ac! damn far! why not aj or something sr also can!

anyway, this entry is really getting kinda loooong! hurr. oh! i didnt mention about my 1st treasure practice! hmmm.. im starting to like this bunch of ppl im working with. im mean like, there are new ppl im working with, so ya. it isnt all that hard, and not as scary as i thought. u noe, im not those VERY organised kinda person, so i personally feel quite stress being a director. im worried that im not up to it. and i dunno when i should stop them and stuff. of course, i noe i can stop them anytime. but yea. sometimes u just dunno if u SHOULD. but aiya.. i noe i have the right, but sometimes i just dunno if it's nice to stop. afterall we're all friends ma. so ya. dun wanna be too mean. i dun wanna be mean at all. but sometimes u really cant help it. heh.

im getting headache lehs. yesterday and today. i dunno why. too much of computer-ing? -shrug- im guessing it's too much sleep yesterday. haha. maybe it's hunger today.. im just busy sending resumes and didnt really eat.

i guess yl and all are at aj now. she wanna go back and look at the j1s. crazy woman. lala and dj going back to. bel's going back initially. but like me, she last min ps! haha. at least i didnt really promise to go la. then it started raining. which made the dun-wanna-go feeling grow stronger. haha. just damn lazy la. haha. somemore this kinda weather is for you to stay at home and slack one. lols.

headache's getting worse!! where's my medicine? grr. signing off. tatax~

a new beginning
some people say a new year means a new beginning. but what about a brand new day? when a new day is a new beginning, but nothing is done about it. how can a new year be a new beginning? coz still, nothing will be done about it.

chinese new year is coming, everywhere is starting to sell those cny decorations, bah guas and the like.. this means that it's time for new clothes and shoes! but where's the money. i shall start calling schools and companies and seriously look for a job tomorrow and let it really be a new beginning. at least for me.

well, it's bed time now. preparation for the new beginning tomorrow! nites and tatax~

just another incident?
went for alumni prac on sat morning at aj.. went amk macs for brunch. yea, it's brunch for me. after that, we gossiped and stuff at macs. then a crowded started gathering outside macs. cg and shawn went out to kpo, while i waited for yuklum to come out. she went toilet. haha. then we went out to join them.

when i reached there, there were already paramedics trying to save someone. it appeared that someone collapsed, looks like an old lady. and the paramedics are trying to save her, doing CPR and stuff. then after some time, they stopped. a woman was consoling an old man.. whom i suppose is that old lady's spouse.. i dunno, but he's face seemed kinda expressionless.. dunno why that old lady collapsed anyway.

after that, the paramedics pushed her off onto the ambulance. shawn said he dun think she made it.. as in dun think that they saved her. sigh. it's kinda depressing. life seems so vulnerable. i felt so helpless, coz there's nothing i could do. maybe that's wad many ppl in the crowd feel as well. but somehow, there're just some ppl damn kiam pah.

i mean, someone's dying, how can you ppl say things so irresponsible. it's a life! YOU are a living thing as well. how can you stand in the crowd and look with a watching-drama kinda attitude? someone is really dying leh. how can people be so heartless, and say such words and to look at the whole matter with those eyes? it's as if they are cold blooded. it's a fellow human being's life! yeah, i agree, we may not be able to do much to help, but this shouldnt be the kinda attitude we have! the so-called ideal situation isnt for the whole world to rush down to try and save her, NO. but it is not to have such comments, not to have such attitude.. whatever, you may find it fun and interesting to have such ppl around, so that you can laugh and criticise/comment, i feel that it is just so wrong.. this shows that there's something wrong with ppl in the mind, there's something wrong with this society that I'M living in..

i mean, whatever la, ppl always watch those korean drama and cry until their eyes are puffy and swollen, watch those charity shows and find those ppl so poor thing and wanna donate money to them. and here, when you really see someone dying and you give such comments? hypocrites! maybe you dun belong to the same group of ppl la. but i mean you can cry over some trivia matters like breaking up with your b/gf.. but here is someone leaving this world. how can you say such things!

i dunno why im so aggitated la, but i am. and i dun like the way cg talk the matter. it's as if all these arent important, it's as if life is just about having such ppl so that you can laugh at them and stuff.. but NO! it isnt!

somehow this affected me quite a bit. and it reminded me of what happened in the past. ppl fighting in the kopitiam, but no one helped but just stand and stare. somebody's shoelace got stucked in the escalator, but no one cares, just look and TSK loudly.. and no one helps. i'm guilty too, of just being a pang guan zhe or a spectator, rather than someone to help these ppl. or do the least that i can. sometimes i just feel helpless la!

and when you needed the help, nobody's willing to give you a helping hand. they just give you useless advice. maybe it isnt really useless la, but it's just something you know. so it doesnt really help. it becomes another sentence/statement made by random ppl.

so what are you? just another spectator or what?

okay, no mood to continue le.. signing off, tatax~

dinner at bugis!
went to meet nad in the afternoon for lunch. passed her some scores too. anyway, while waiting for her, some random ppl approached me for name contact no. their from some modelling company/some company looking for new faces for tv commercial. haha. funny!

met up, talked for quite a bit, then walked ard a bit and nad left for noos choir. and i went bugis to walk ard. waah, damn sian. nothing much down there. but i managed to spend time till 5+ and i strolled to the mrt station to wait for the rest of yuklum and gang.. then some ang moh wanted to use the machine to buy tickets to go harbourfront. so i helped them. they were all drenched coz of the rain la. haha. but they dun speak english. somehow, we managed to communicate. haha.

yl and zx came, followed by lala. then bel came and malcolm came. haha. walked around and took super long to decide where to eat. and finally we ended up at siam kitchen! had a normal plate of pineapple fried rice. yuklum's horfun is nice! but spicy. but yea. had fun can already la! horfun! no wonder it's nice. lols. sorry. the photos and video are up! check the links at the drop box!

after that we went bugis street to buy nice earrings!! whee! then we had free ice coffee at the new starbucks! but i didnt drink la, coz it's the bitter kind! like kopi o.. bleah! so gross. then went home. my brother came and fetch me. and drive bel home too.

guess what? shaun called bel on the way home! and talked for soo long! haha. and bel said he dun call everyday la! but aloy told malcolm that shaun calls her ALMOST everyday! tsktsk.. stop denying la! hahaha. XP ok, better stop here before i get murdered. and if i ever do after i posted this, you noe it's who la.. haha!

blah! so sian. just slacking ard today. ok la, shall sign off here, tatax~

cca carn
so TIRED! just done with mark's blog. hey, im publicising for him! anyway it's so nice, coz it's done by me! haha. and yuklum's blog also damn nice! coz i found the skin. hahahaha! bleahs. do visit either one and comment. haha..

anyway, yea, brought the cat for vaccination today, some post sterilisation jab. but she's running a fever, so no jab for her. and she's got flu and fungus on her face! we were thinking could those be pimples.. haha. funny funny. anyway, i carried her to and fro. and wth, her paws are so dirty! my house tee got covered in black paw prints la. DIRTY! like i just climbed out of some drain like that.

went home to change and went aj. had lunch before that with my brother at some coffee shop near aj. then went there.

quite boring lehs. apart from having so many ppl there signing up. and a job assigned by miss yiak upon my arrival coz she has not enough manpower (weird, when there're sooo many j2s) so i was running around, calling names and asking ppl to sign up. haha. but then it got really boring, so i started entertaining myself by cheering cedar cheers and some lame stuff..

went into the choir room towards the end of the auditions. then started lazing/running around. playing with this person and that.. then got so sian! then i went home. haha. go aj for fun. i think i really damn no life la.

felt damn sleepy and slept on the bus. actually i've been feeling sleepy the whole day lehs. dunno why, even though i slept A LOT.. maybe i slept too much. haha. and ya, i realised, because of the coffee shop kopitiam, we cant call any coffee shop kopitiam anymore, coz it has become a name of a coffee shop. if we call any coffee shop kopitiam, ppl will think that it's the kopitiam instead of normal coffee shop.. do you understand? haha.

ok la, damn sleepy. shall go to bed now. as in seriously.. tatax~

"interview"
stupid la.. went for an interview today. through a road survey one. cheat me one la! it's those network marketing.. ask me sell water filter system. what the hell. waste my time. the worse thing is, when i wanna leave, the so-called manager in-charge of me, audrey, came back! and i got trapped. then the other person, eileen, who took over audrey while she's away, came as well. and after a while, audrey's manager, michelle came! and i got cornered by 3 ppl! wad the hell. i almost couldnt leave that place la.. and they dragged me back by 20-30 minutes! walau.. i took a chance when the lift near me opened, and i went in and said i really gotta rush, sorry, and i'm really NOT interested!

WASTE MY TIME! grr.

anyway, when i finally got out of that place, i went to meet yuklum and went aj together. wow, so many ppl! some funny j1s are already wearing aj uniform. i think they are mad. after they stay, they may regret. and feel damn stupid, to actually start wearing aj uni this early. haha. i think these ppl are really crazy. but somehow, it reminds me of my 1st 3 months day.. coz ppl seldom talk, coz we dunno each other well. unlike last year, me and yuklum just play and talk even though we've became seniors. haha. bleahx!

went for dinner with yuklum, gillian and joel after choir. then talked about some random ppl until 9++pm! wow. i think we damn lohsoh. haha.. zahh! just reached home not long ago. stupid interview waste my time.

oh well, shall sign off, tatax~

What Age Do You Act?
You Are 18 Years Old



You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

What Age Do You Act?

haha, so is this a good thing or a bad thing?

How Much Pride Do You Have?
Your Pride Quotient: 50%



You have your proud moments, but you're also likely to be a little ashamed of them.
Don't be too hard on yourself. It's normal to want to make a stellar impression.

How Much Pride Do You Have?



How Much Have You Changed in 10 Years?
You've Changed 60% in 10 Years



You've done a good job changing with the times, but deep down, you're still the same person.
You're clothes, job, and friends may have changed some - but it hasn't changed you.

How Much Have You Changed in 10 Years?



What Color Should Your Eyes Be?
Your Eyes Should Be Brown



Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom

What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?



The Sesame Street Personality Quiz
You Are Ernie



Playful and childlike, you are everyone's favorite friend - even if your goofy antics get annoying at times.

You are usually feeling: Amused - you are very easily entertained

You are famous for: Always making people smile. From your silly songs to your wild pranks, you keep things fun.

How you live your life: With ease. Life is only difficult when your friends won't play with you!

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz


ahh, i'm so bored.. haha.

Are You Spoiled?
You Are 32% Spoiled



You're barely spoiled. You may have some nice things, but you never let them go to your head.
You appreciate each gift you're given - and you don't dwell on what you "deserve" to have.

Are You Spoiled?

What Element Is Your Love?
Your Love Element Is Metal



In love, you inspire and respect your partner.
For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience.

You attract others with wit and a bit of flash.
Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you.

Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life.
You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past.

You connect best with: Earth

Avoid: Fire

You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other

What Element Is Your Love?

How Normal Are You?
You Are 45% Normal



While some of your behavior is quite normal...
Other things you do are downright strange
You've got a little of your freak going on
But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself
How Normal Are You?

the art of seduction

MORE!
also from bel's blog.. i guess we are both quite bored..


[x] You know someone that cares about you.
[x] You have a girlfriend/boyfriend/fiancee/husband/wife.
[ ] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.

T O T A L: 6

[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer and laptop in your house.
[ ] You have never been beaten up.[by parent]
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert. (any kind?)
[x] You laugh more than twice a day. (yeah I think I do :D)

T O T A L: 14

[x] You have over 50 friends on Friendster.
[ ] You have pictures on myspace.
[x] Your parents let you have a Friendster
[ ] You have no problem in your studies. (MY ASS ! I wish !)
[x] You collect something normal.
[x] People don't make fun of you to be mean.
[x] You look forward to going to school. (well, sometimes laa..)
[x] You don't wish you were someone else. (only sometimes)
[x] You do something after school at home/outside.
[ ] You always pass ALL the subjects in exams.

T O T A L: 21

[x] You own a car in your fam. (van laa.. haha)
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents. (ya, USUALLY)
[x] You are happy with your appearance/looks. (usually la...)
[ ] You aren't self-conscious at all.
[x] You have friends.
[ ] Your parents working salary monthly is more than $4000. (i need some financial aid! like seriously..)
[x] You know your parents care and love you.

T O T A L: 26

[x] You know what is going on in the world. (generally, yahh..)
[x] You care about so many people.
[x] You are happy with your life.
[x] You usually aren't sick.
[x] You know more than one language.
[x] You have a screen name.
[x] You've gotten awards/prizes/trophies before.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[ ] You dont have any enemies at all.
[x] You are Happy that you're living.

G R A N D T O T A L: 35

so i guess u're supposed to multiply the grand total by 2.. so i'm 70% happy! right bel? haha.. oh well.. how true is that.. maybe it actually says, you're SUPPOSED to be 70% happy.. -shrug-

oh well.. anymore such surveys?? haha..

i'm bored!!
from bel's blog..


Q: What is in your left pocket?
A: there's no pocket.

Q: How much alcohol did you have this week?
A: ermsh, a few cups.. maybe it adds up to a bottle or half of it..

Q: Do you eat gas station food?
A: yep!

Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
A: dunno, i didn't watch that..

Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?
A: now that you talk about it.. of course..

Q: Do you think that person is thinking of you too?
A: i hope so..

Q: What color underwear do you have on?
A: white!

Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
A: tiles.. my mum threw away the nice furry carpet coz the stupid cat unrinated on it!

Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
A: stand.. but of course, you can choose to sit on the toilet bowl to bathe.. haha.

Q: Could you live with roommates?
A: roommates are good..

Q: How many pairs of flip-flops do you own?
A: 2.. or izzit 4? i think 5.. X)

Q: Where were you born?
A: Gleneagles.. same as bel!

Q: Ever been to rehab/jail?
A: nope..

Q: Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
A: in my dreams? never..

Q: What do you want to be when you grow up?
A: in the radio industry.. actually i wanna do many many things.. im quite ambitious..

Q: Who is number 1 on your top 8?
A: huh?

Q: What cell phone service do you have?
A: M1

Q: How many people are on your friends list?
A: on msn, 296..

LAST:

Q: Friend you talked to? In person? Online?
A: in person: cheeguan, online: zaid, on the phone: mark!

Q: Last person you called?
A. i called home..

Q: Person you hugged
A: mark


FAVORITE:

Q: Number?
A: 5

Q: Color(s)?
A: orange, greeeen, red, yellow, blue........

Q: Season?
A: rainy season! provided that i dun have to step out of my house..


CURRENTLY:

Q: Mood?
A: a bit bored, but still alright..

Q: Listening to?
A: some weird chinese song playing on channel 51..

Q: Watching?
A: yeah, that mtv..

Q: Worrying about?
A: nothing much..

RANDOM:

Q: First thing you did this morning?
A: sent an sms..

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: mmmm, getting a job maybe..

Q: Is your bestfriend a boy or a girl?
A: a girl! she's still my best friend even though we've drifted.. somehow..

Q: What's annoying you right now?
A: the noisy mtv..

Q: What's the last movie you saw in theatres?
A: Night at the Museum

Q: Do you smile often?
A: yeah, i smile when im happy, i smile when i dunno what to say, i smile when i have nothing to say, i smile when......

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: i think so.. though ppl say i'm fierce.. haha

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
A: orange!

photos&vid
uploaded the photos and video for the countdown at char's place.. photos are mostly her dogs and some random shots la, haha.. enjoy! tatax~

just another day
i'm sure many of us are guilty of wasting time.. in fact, all of us. i believe this is not a sweeping statement, coz no matter what, at some point of time, you'll just sit down and start dazing.. THAT is wasting time. and that's what i'm doing. well, i'm not exactly dazing, just not doing anything constructive. damn sian man..

my mum just unsubscribed straits times.. that means there's no more recruit! oh man, i wanna look for a job.. then i wouldt have so much free time to spare, doing nothing.. at the same time, i can have $$ to go shopping and learn driving.. haha.. there are so many things i wanna buy.

this shall be my new year resolution!! or at least for these few months.. to find a job, hopefully the pay's good.. and learn driving! actually, shopping is no.1 on the list la, but nvm..

stepping into 2007 feels different from any other year before.. coz there used to be something to look forward to, but this year, there's none.. the something is like school la. it's not as if there's REALLY nothing to look forward to this year. but at least those still at school will be busy preparing for school reopen now.. but i have nothing to do. there seems to be something missing.. the exciting feeling. you know i am actually quite excited about school, as much as i dread it.. i mean you can go back and meet all your friends. i dun go to school for lessons one la. haha.

but yea, this feeling is lost. this new year feels so different. apart from school, something's just missing.. i dunno what exactly. cant name it.. just DAMN SIAN!

anyway, was supposed to go lin laoshi's place for lunch and gathering today. but yea, didnt feel very well.. the whole family's sick.. 'cept my mum. am coughing away since bbq actually.

i hope it's still raining.. then i'll have an excuse to feel gloomy and sad.. just feel damn pathetic sometimes. i mean like i dun wanna be those i cant live without someone. but the pathetic cold hard truth is, somehow, sometimes, this is true. like how ppl cannot live without their mums/maids etc etc.. grr.

SIAN.. signing off. tatax~

Happy New Year
whopdidop.. it's 2007! whee..

anyway, went library to return book, then went to meet shawn and cg for a while.. then i went home to laze around.. so tired! was planning to take a nap. but somehow i never did.. bahh! went ps to meet shawn and cg again.. coz there's free movie! haha. night at the museum.. either shawn or cg treated la..

quite nice noe, the movie.. funny. haha.. somehow the son, nick, seems to be more mature than his dad, larry.. haha. oh well..

after the movie, went char's house.. shawn went home. ate some food, countdown, took some photos, drank some beer.. then went home. took train and change cab home with cg.. oh well!

anyway, the day before which was 30th, was choir bbq!! wheee! there was meeting in the morning. was 1-hour late. haha X) after that we (as in all of us) had lunch at macs! there was some celebration at macs.. and ronald was around (ronald as in ppl disguised as ronald, not the one sitting on the bench, haha) and him and another guy brought a mango cake for jiemin! and we sang birthday song for her!! haha. so nice right.. it wasnt planned leh.

after that, went icekimo@thomson for ice cream! peiying's treat.. whee! then we played some of cheeguan's lame games.. and we set off for j8. nadiah bought some stuff.. then we went pasir ris, all the other older seniors went home.. haha.. tralala.. aloy and all were already there.. met up with them, and started bbq-ing..

had some food and started playing a game called, have you ever.. i think.. it's the achievement game played during the missing camp! ya.. after the long round of game, shaun, bel and the juniors went home. we stayed on to sing, fool around and clear up.. went to the bus interchange to catch the last 88.. whee geok and wan song went off alone.. mmmm.. nadiah said nothing happened yet.. !!! hahaha.. YET..

ya la, basically, these are what happened.. going to upload the bbq photos and videos.. will upload the countdown ones sometime soon.. haha..

ok la! shall sign off here. tatax~