farewell and some random stuff
farewell's over, officially graduated. hmmm. went on stage for dsa thingie. saw miss leong when i went down the stage. i think she recognised me, as a cedarian. i mean afterall, she has superb memory. so i wouldnt be surprised. and she nodded at me! that's so reassuring ((: she's so motivating la. i think she's one of the few who has motivated and changed me. and i truely respect her. i was secretly feeling very happy inside when i saw her nodding at me ((: so ppl out there, STOP making fun of her la. i mean once in a while is alright, but you cannot always do that one wad, its so disrespectful. and some really hate her, until they say some really mean thing lor. but sometimes we have to think about ourselves before we say anything about others.

so yep, so much about miss leong.

anyway, i got back the gp compre on multitasking. guess wad? i got 28.5!! that's my highest la! nv in my 2 years have i attained that kinda result! woah! so proud of myself. but after mrs chng discussed more about the multitasking passages, the more i feel im guilty about last minute changing appointments. people nowadays are really losing responsibility! but still cant beat someone..

took pictures and more pictures. went town with some classmates after that, cheng wee, kh, qicai, chin thin, marianne, alvin, darren tan, darren liau, kc, ryan and shaohong. ate at chicago's steakhouse, but i didnt have steak. had baked rice! yum. ((: then walked ard, did all the stupid stuff, as if we were in school. even if we were in school, it's stupid. with ppl like shaohong ard.. haha. ooops.


zzz! anyway, just a little note of reminder to myself (or reflection):

hey there, STOP getting so upset over these puny and stupid matters! the greater your expection, the greater your disappointment! people who take you for granted dun deserve this much attention. you SHOULD be focusing on your As! its sooo much more important, so WHY are you diverting your attention on these?

anyway, its just one person! be grateful that you have sooo many other nice ppl ard you, ppl who are nv tired of your nonsense, of your lame jokes, of your craziness. be grateful and stop complaining just because of one person! you shouldnt be letting all these affect your emotions!

this is a very critical period of your life! why bother about others! stop thinking that everything'll happen the way you think it will! if need be, just lock yourself in your room EVERYDAY to study. or join marie at bishan library. im sure she'll be more than happy to have me joining her. unless its another wishful thought of mine.

so, stop expecting so much! come to the realisation that so far, your disappointment has been greater! didnt you realise that you're tired? why do this to yourself?! stop it and just concentrate on your studies will you! targets and goals are meant to be achieved!

alright, enough ranting. it was nothing much, just me feeling unhappy, i just need somewhere to voice it out loud! need someone to read it. that's all..

signing off! tatax~

counting down
yep, counting down to the As.. time's running out. it's so scary. sigh.. yes, its econs.. zzz.

anyway, there was econs extra lecture today, but i didnt go. went for treatment. so guilty. i should have gone, given my lousy results. sigh..

somemore, its like, hai, ive been feeling so damn bloody tired lately la. i also dunno why. been sleeping at ard 10 plus lately. and i cant really wake up in the morning. i wonder why. and tml's the farewell! gosh. how time flies.. i wouldnt say i'll miss aj that much la. i'll just miss the ppl, miss choir. maybe.. just maybe i'll miss the school this teeny weeny bit. but definitely not as much as cedar. just dun have that kinda feeling la. the scary feeling is more overwhelming..

and ya, sat's the openhouse. yea, openhouse! i wonder why choir used that small banner we painted the night before last year's openhouse. haha.

talk about choir, it feels as if its been soooo long that i havent been to the choir room! shall sneak in on some wednesday.. maybe mon/thurs too. haha.

alrighty, shall sign off here. tatax~

random..
hmm.. lemme see, i didnt plan to skip sch last friday. just that i overslept that's all. and erm, i did this compre on multitasking. and this guy talked abt how ppl become less committed. just because they can easily change their appointments with just a phonecall/sms. that's why they feel that it is less important to keep such promises. which perhaps, they longer see as one..

i think its so true. even im guilty of it. but im just usually late, i DUN ps one lor. unlike someone.......

and i just finished a book. quite nice, jemima jones.. haha. those happily-ever-after ending.. but nice. though someone calls it trashy book. yes, indeed, but nvm.. haha.

actually there's nuthing much, just isnt too happy durung the weekends.. hmmm. signing off! tatax~

prelims
prelims results are out. and its nuthing but disappointment. C for maths and chinese. C6 for gp, O for econs. there's moderation for chinese and gp. and these are moderated results. i shud be getting B for chinese and D7 for gp actually. but nvm. im just angry with chinese dept and am grateful to english dept. but anyways, i expected myself to do better for maths la. and getting O for econs may be depressing, it isnt totally unexpected la. ip is chasing me ard now. asking me to go for consultation. i dun want! sigh. i think its kinda useless, coz she doesnt understand wad i ask. for eg today, we discussed (argued) a 2-mark drq question in class. and she just refused totally to listen to wad me and jas have to say! wth! coz she thinks its wrong concept or something. i dunno. but wth! how are YOU gonna help me when YOU are unwilling to LISTEN to my question??! sickening la! she's pekcek, so am I!

anyway, i havent beem blogging for quite some time. after prelims. but i havent really been studying much. there's suddenly sooo much econs and maths practices. i dun think i can finish them. anyway, im feeling suffocated. with this overwhelming stress. just like during O levels chemistry. when i was so distressed over the fact that i cant get a single thing into my head. chinese seemed so difficult to get A/B la. and im aiming for A. tan bee lien reviewed other college's prelim questions. and i dunno most of them. in fact i only noe one la. i feel that im so dead la.

maths is chicken feet. sure A. but econs and gp.. feeling depressed and i dun have the motivation to work for it. more for econs la, actually. i think gp is not all that hopeless for me. i hope. sigh.. i feel like crying..

anw, just being lazy, so i shall reply tags here.

guowei`: wad's with the spike hair?? did i mention that? dun remember. yes yes, i'll kick you when i see you next time. haha. thnx (:

zy: hey, thnx! erm, i think i can only teach you maths la. econs, im not so pro..

christabel: whee! and today's mooncake fest!! ((: study study!

aggie: haha, hello chic auntie(?)!! yay, thnx! last few weeks already!! -scary- and i hope you did okay for your promos! that my "good luck" helped! heh. ((:

miNn*: yesss, econs was bad laa.. paper2 was VERY bad as compared to your badge, according to some econs tutors. sigh.. but, oh well..



yep, that's abt all.. time to do econs!! yes, i LOVE econs man! (well, im not even convinced about that) okay, tatax~