common tests
YES! they are finally over! i've been mugging for it since erm, 2 or 3 days before it actually starts? haha. look, im so gonna fail my gp, coz i think my essay's out of point. zzz. paper 2 isnt exactly easy according to bel, but i thought it was okay, just that even if i think its okay, i'll still do badly. its always the case. sigh.

tuesday was maths! the subj that ive been practicing all along for that 2-3 days, forgoing my econs. and erm. i hope i can pass. there's SHOULDN'T be too many careless mistakes i hope. anyway i already have 30 marks deducted for leaving it blank or i just think its confirm wrong. somethings are just straight in your face la. like the stupid differetial equation application question. this is the kind i can nv do and sure enough i'll get just one mark for it! our of 6.. oh well.

wednesday was econs! i only started my last minute cramming at 9pm the night before. coz i was already in holiday mood and was sleeping and slacking my day away. luckily i studied the right thing. everything came out. even fiscal policy which i predicted it will, but had no time to study for it. or rather reluctant to, coz my brain is refusing to absorb. haha. and i left that question blank! great, 15marks okay. its an essay! and my market failure essay, i forgot to evaluate all the measures for externalities!! i realised it only a little too late to do anything. sigh. and my drq sure die, coz my i left a question not done (which is on policy as well), i couldnt finish my last question and i think the rest im just crapping and i wun do well. zzz. mcq is quite ez i think. but i hope its truely ez, and not trick questions. sianx, i always think a paper is ez but i always end up failing them!

after that was chinese listening comprehension. full marks for me! high possibility i guess.

today is finally my last day! so relaxing now. although im still quite unhappy abt the fact that sooo many other ppl had their last paper yesterday. its so unfair. i dun care, it is just unfair. but who cares abt those who end tml. hahaha. bleahx. today's chinese paper. great. i only started my revision today. yes, this morning. i just slept my day away yesterday. so i woke up early (later than the previous few days though) and went to school to revise. and i wrote sooo much during the exam my arm is aching. but most of the time im just repeating my point. i hope i can pass. *prays hard* but if i seriously studied, i should be able to get full marks la. that is IF.

and finally all papers are over. i think if there's no accident, i should be able to get maybe say E for econs, haha M for maths. kidding, C/D for maths and maybe D for chinese? though i hope i can do better. coz its possible. i hope i dun fail anything other than gp, which is confirm fail. i have really little faith in my essay, even though chng said i should be able to do better for paper1. and she wants me to get at least C6. im so sorry mrs chng!! sorry for not reading during the holidays, for leaving the gp file in sch during the holidays and slacking my holidays away. should be sorry to all the teachers la. sianx.

anyway, im feeling sleepy now. too many night with too little sleep. ive been sleeping for less than 6hours every night these few days. sigh. unlike the holidays when i sleep for 9-11hours everyday!! other than certain nights when i watch soccer till 5. haha. oh and did i mention that my middle finger is hurting? it started when i was doing econs. quite painful. i think its sprained or something. haha, bothers me when i write. zzz.

and i realised that many ppl keep saying they'll fail their papaers. and these ppl normally do well. and ppl like me who think i'll do alright are the ones who fail. ironic huh..

ahhh, i wanna go shopping!! haha. zzz. anyone interested?

anyway, portugal won holland in the midst of my cts, or rather hours before it started. yayness! means i'll see cristiano ronaldo this saturday! haha. but sadly deco's not playing. costinha also. they may lose leh! but england is so lousy also. so its quite hard to tell. hmmm, anyway so there'll be ashley cole and cristiano ronaldo again! haha, interesting. i'll start revision for As after world cup! smiles smiles. i hope argentina will go to finals instead of germany.. alright! shall sign off here. tatax~

hmmm
i wonder if u can see the previous post. anyway, its posted specially for kiat!! :)) i think the lyric sounds just like us. the title is yi ge xiang xia tian yi ge xiang qiu tian. go download or something. i think its really a nice song about friendship. our friendship. :)

anyway, im still coughing away. but i guess it is slightly better. and erm, ive been trying to study econs. quite sian. but yea, still trying. the clock's still ticking. and i noe i have very limited time to complete whatever undone, especially maths. i think im seriously going back into the apts, as much as i do not wish to. but erm. i only have myself to blame. oh well! shall just stop here. tatax~

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the 100% perfect other
Once upon a time, there lived a boy and a girl. The boy was eighteen and the girl was sixteen. He was not unusually handsome, and she was not especially beautiful. They were just an ordinary lonely boy and an ordinary lonely girl, like all the others. But they believed with their whole hearts that somewhere in the world there lived the 100% perfect boy and the 100% perfect girl for them. Yes, they believed in miracle. And that miracle actually happened.

One day the two came upon each other on the corner of a street.

"This is amazing," he said. "I've been looking for you all my life. You may not believe this, but you're the 100% perfect girl for me."

"And you," she said to him, "are the 100% perfect boy for me, exactly as I'd pictured you in every detail. It's like a dream."

They sat on a park bench, held hands, and told each other their stories hour after hour. They were not lonely anymore. They had found and been found by their 100% perfect other. What a wonderful thing it is to find and be found by your 100% perfect other. It's a miracle, a cosmic miracle.

As they sat and talked, however, a tiny, tiny silver of doubt took root in their hearts: Was it really all right for one's dreams to come true so easily?

And so, when there came a momentary lull in their conversation, the boy said to the girl, "Let's test ourselves - just once. If we really are each other's 100% perfect lovers, then sometime, somewhere, we will meet again without fail. And when that happens, and we know that we are the 100% perfect ones, we'll marry then and there. What do you think?"

"Yes," she said, "that is exactly what we should do."

And so they parted, she to the east, and he to the west.

The test they had agreed upon, however, was utterly unnecessary. They should never have undertaken it, because they really and truly were each other's 100% perfect lovers, and it was a miracle that they had ever met. But it was impossible for them to know this, young as they were. The cold, indifferent waves of fate proceeded to toss them unmercifully.

One winter, both the boy and the girl came down with the season's terrible influenza, and after drifting for weeks between life and death they lost all memory of their earlier years. When they awoke, their heads were as empty as the young D.H. Lawrence's piggy bank.

They were two bright, determined young people, however, and thought their unremitting efforts they were able to acquire once again the knowledge and feeling that qualified them to return as full-fledged members of society. Heaven be praised, they became truly upstanding citizens who knew how to transfer from one subway line to another, who were fully capable of sending a special-delivery letter at the post office. Indeed, they even experienced love again, sometimes as much as 75% or even 85% love.

Time passed with shocking swiftness, and soon the boy was thirty-two, the girl thirty.

One beautiful April morning, in search of a cup of coffee to start the day, the boy was walking from west to east, while the girl, intending to send a special-delivery letter, was walking from east to west, both along the same narrow street in the Harajuku neighborhood of Tokyo. They passed each other in the very center of the street. The faintest gleam of their lost memories glimmered for the briefest moment in their hearts. Each felt a rumbling in the chest. And they knew:

She is the 100% perfect girl for me.
He is the 100% perfect boy for me.

But the glow of their memories was far too weak, and their thoughts no longer had the clarity of fourteen years earlier. Without a word, they passed each other, disappearing into the crowd. Forever.

A sad story, don't you think?

Abstracted from On Seeing The 100% Perfect Girl One Beautiful April Morning by Haruki Murakami. Translated by Jay Rubin.

another night at macs..
went macs last night to watch world cup again. with yuk and malcolm. tc came and left before malcolm reached. anyway, me and yuk went to bet. bought 0 total goal for brazil v australia match. and yes, we lost! haha. but the odds was like $18.50 la. so tempting. and we'll be paid $92.50 if we win. for the fance v s.korea match, we bought draw-home. and we lost! coz its home-draw instead. wth! sian laa.. yuklum la! kept cursing. coz she bought draw for that match also. and she bought total 2goals for brazil v australia match also. and she won both. wth! zzz.

anyway, din achieve much last night, as much as i tried to study. still on the same notes. but had fun taking photos on silly stuff. i'll upload when im free. or rather i feel like it, since i AM actually quite free. coz like today, i didnt study at all. woke up only at ard like 2 or 3 in the afternoon. and i finished watching an anime, then went to read books, listen to mp3s, instead of studying. gosh. i really am so dead man!

rah rah! and im coughing, hurting my throat so badly. zzz. k la, shall sign off and check out a m'sia channel, whether its showing world cup or not. haha. tatax~

sentosa!
woah! outing! i love outings. especially to the beach! -swim swim-

anyway, 3am in the morning, i was watching the brazil vs croatia match. croatia's surprisingly strong that brazil only managed to score 1 goal. oh well. kinda boring. korea won togo! though deep down inside i hope that they'll draw. haha. yess, coz my previous life was a japanese, someone would say..

woke up at 8.30 in the morning! damn early, considering i slept at 5am in the morning. packed and left the house at 9.30am. met cg at the mrt station by surprise. i din noe that he's joining us as well. then we happened to run into yuklum and malcolm on the train at serangoon station. haha! so we're all late together. BUT we are not the latest (mark is)! gillian, joel, joey and jorensylv were there already. lala and tc went for breakfast without us.

had breakfast at macs and went cold storage to buy drinks. and we left the mainland to sentosa! went palawan beach to realise that the yellow floats are no longer there. oops. btw, did i say that jo brought her dog along? cleo! she's so adorable. -woof woof- haha. played with her, played captain's ball, j2s vs others(j3s+jo). and we lost miserably. hahaha. oh well. halfway thru the games, some sentosa photographers approached us and took 7 photos of us and asked us to take a look at them at some shop on sentosa. we can purchase them if we want to. but we forgot totally about it towards the end of the day.

after the game, went swimming! it's been months since i last swam. feeling so tired now. what more, i played bball in school after choir ended, making things worse. haha.

went BK for lunch. cg, joey, gill and joel went to eat muslim food. joey, gill and joel left after lunch. and cg joined us at siloso beach. didnt play much ball games. was just floating ard in the sea, sitting at the beach, laughing away at silly things. haha. playing with cleo once in a while. the water at siloso is nicer to stay in and the current there is nice. though its making me a lil giddy. dragged mark into the sea and yuklum and mark started learning how to float on water. hahaha. damn funny. and i taught yuklum to swim! wow. she can swim a few stroke! yay! practice makes perfect, so yuklum, you should start going to the swimming pool!

oh ya, hanquan, malcolm and mark kept peeping at couples making out at the beach/sea.. but the bio discussion about pregnanacy was kinda interesting. hahahaha..

i think it was about 6 plus, we decided to pack up and go home. after bathing and stuff, it was kinda late already. and everyone just pang seh and went home without having dinner! went heartland mall for dinner with mark. and i realised its wednesday night and there's singapore idol! missed it. and the spain vs ukraine match!! but nvm.. :)

i'll continue tml..

(cont'd)
went home all tired and sleepy.. zzz. but i only slept at 2am coz i was trying to upload photos to my brother's laptop to send to all. but its just sooo very slow. but finally its done and sent! i guess its time for study!! tatax~

world cup fever
ive been blogging quite a lot this holiday. hmmm. and i havent been studying much. or rather, i havent been studying. damn. i think im so gonna fail my CTs. went to watch england vs paraguay. it was a boring match. zzz. me and yuk met up at amk s11 (nx to jubilee) to watch. but there's not seats! so we went mark's place. but anyway, there's portugal vs angola 3am in the morning! oh man! exciting! cristiano ronaldo! haha. anyway, we MAY be going hq's place to watch tonight. anyway, there's serbia and montenegro vs netherlands at 9pm. shud be quite nice too. i like their (netherlands) jersey.. haha. USA's jersey's not bad too =)) aiya, so many nice matches. i think i really dunnit to study already. shall go and read econs notes now! tatax~

WORLD CUP!
yayness! world cup's opening match today! or rather tml! coz its 12 midnight. germany vs costa rica! so exciting! though its kinda confirm that germany'll win, but i still wanna watch. haha. there's another match at 3am poland vs ecuador. not as exciting. cant watch it either. but hey! i think tml's match will be. coz there's england and its kicking off at 9pm. gonna go somebody's place to watch. dun care! took a look at the matches.. there's at least one exciting match everyday! oh man.. can die. that is if im gonna go someone's house to watch them.. but i doubt so. coz i think my mum will be angry with me liddat. and i cant possibly stay at whoever's place for one whole month right? haha.

harr, this feels like the good old days in 2002, when we were all watching the games, discussing abt the match, the referee, the hunks.. haha. just that those involved in the discussion with me are no longer the same ppl, and the number has decreased significantly.. hmmmm.

anyway, had lunch at seoul garden with mrs chng and hanquan on wednesday (7th jun). treat from her! woah! how nice of her. i hope to treat her back some day. maybe after i get back my results nx yr, i'll treat her to some jap restaurant. since she likes sashimi. =))

met jas in the morn to study at amk lib. but i was 45min late. oops. did maths for 2hours. it is kinda draining. felt tired after that. had lunch and went for treatment. met up with mark for dinner and we watched the omen. it wasnt as horrifying as the trailers. in fact its not scary at all, other than certain moments.. went home after that. did i mention that i met mavis? haha.

friday friday.. woke up late to meet marie and hua. thinking back, i think everytime i meet anyone, im always late! its very seldom that im on time. oops, im so very sorry. anyway, went shopping! wheee! so fun. but i didnt try out a lot, or rather, i didnt at all, just the one i bought. coz i went late! but anyway, i bought a new black tee! yay. oops, spending again! im just helping the economy! =)) i think they need more ppl like me. or rather ppl like marie. she bought A LOT. haha.

wah wah! the pull over's still at heeren's converse! -beams-

and oh ya! the green puma sweater's still so nice!! tried it. so preeeetty! but its like sixty over bucks after discount! -sigh- oh no, i feel like buying so many things. but i dun have money! zzz. maybe i shouldnt window shop so much. firstly, it is time consuming. secondly, it just depresses me. and i'll lose the time and mood to study! that's kinda bad eh.

rah rah! i think i'll fall aslp half way through the match later. im kinda sleepy now. how! and there's choir in the morning! sian. okay la, shall sign off here. tatax~

triple six!!
woah! launching date of the omen! heh, kinda freaky. anyway, there was econs today. erpx, i dunno what to say. but yea, i guess its useful? anyway, surprisingly, my grp scored full marks for group work! woah. though i dun think we deserve it. something tells me that miss yiak is biased towards us. haha. yea, miss yiak took us for econs workshop. mdm woon too!

after econs, there was a meeting with kwei which lasted for an hour. zzz. but hey, i thought the 4 songs that we did during the workshop arent that fantastic after listening to the recordings. although kwei said its of mid-silver standard. yea, that's why its silver, not gold. haha. but i thought there are still lotsa room for improvement. im not trying to be mean or bias, but with kwei gone to olomouc now, i dunno how to! coz its like, none of us are capable of leading the choir well. other mark i guess. but he doesnt know much, considering 90% of the time he's in camp.

anyway, choir practice was short yesterday coz kwei said he's tired, so were we! and he said he din want practice today. lucky us, but there's still meeting. hmmm. tralala. after the practice yesterday, me, yuk, dj, hq and malcolm decided to go woodlands to look for malcolm's xing fu, haha! so we all went! but the thing is, we got stuck in the traffic jam on the expressway for at least an hour! reached woodlands only like 2hours later, i guess. sigh. feels like sucha long journey. erm, well, in fact, it is! and hey, it was damn bloody cold la! hanquan got scolded by a malay on the bus, damn funny. okay, its not really funny, hanquan was damn angry. and when we were alighting, i fell down leh. so embarrassing. but luckily, i wasnt wearing specs coz there's condensation, so i couldnt see, so its not that bad. and that may be why i fell. oh wadeva.

went there, saw malcolm's xing fu and went to eat dinner, then went home. quite a waste of time leh. for us, not him. haha. oh! and there may be sentosa outing for choir! woohoo! i hope it'll realise, not just empty talks.

i am so bored now, slacking away, though it's kinda bad. miss those days when i slack and need not care abt studies. mark my dooms day! which is the start of ct.

booo! dinner time! tatax~

more choir
yes to zhanyong's question, he is paul.

sigh. i think there are just too many choir practices! zzz. anyway, yesterday, it was kinda scary, so was the day before yesterday. we had one by one testing by kwei. -shivers- esp when yuk stands next to you, you'll just get very stressed.

anyway, yesterday, we had small groups, row by row. our own practice was like sh*t la. couldn't really finish the whole song. but when we performed, i thought it was quite alright, everything just went quite smoothly. heh. of course, its not flawless. but, oh well!

after the prac yesterday, we (me, bel, yuk, lala, malcolm, hq, jk, shaun, dj, zx, mavis, evon, agnessa, meirong, jiahui, xingying, joey and a lot of other j1 girls) went for dinner at j8. yes, we took 13 all the way from siglap to j8! how wonderful. after the super noisy dinner at food junction (which i suppose we attracted so much attention), me and bel left the group. we really wanted to go home, until i suggested that we window shop for a while! haha. in the end we met the rest at the bus stop. haha.

anyway, there's workshop with consort today. yep, met justin. heh, i sorta hear him here and there when they sing. i thought today was not bad, though could be better. and im positive that our pitching was kinda off and a lil rush for karimatanu. hmmmm. oh well! at least i did the actions correctly and didnt anyhow clap! yay! haha. dj did it wrongly! ok, that's not the point.

anyway, sigh, quite sian. everyone say that im fierce k. or rather just yuklum they all. grrr.. wadeva i say equals to fierce. ive successfully taken over dj's position! yayness. right... quite irritating k.

zzzz, anyways, agrees with bel! there's so many practices and my days are almost spent on choir pracs i dun have the time to start my work proper! i think i'll just die for mid years. sian. kinda tired of choir sometimes. eventhough we're kinda improving according to kwei. but still, sigh. feeling kinda stressed and stuff, for not doing any work. i have a feeling i'll fail everything.

rahhh. so many things are going on in choir now. ppl are kinda free to link ard ppl's blog to read this and that. i prefer to get them from the secondary sources. shall crown guowei and zhanyong as the gossipmongers man. the chief and assistant chief from the gossip village.

anyway, i guess today's prac for didnt end very nicely, or rather its the trip home. im so tired la. and the weather's so bloody hot, it just makes my blood boils. feel damn irritated over nothing. zzz.

reading through this entry, i realised there quite a lot of things that im irritated with. or maybe just two.. but anyway, shall sign off here. tatax~