singapore idol 2
yea, sure enough, its back! and i just spotted someone i can support! PAUL TWOHILL. awww, its so nice when he sang here without you. i mean, its the whole personality and attitude that he gives and you noe he's just the ONE! haha. but yea, si fever's coming back. and its burning hot! actually, i think the piano show is not exciting yet. cosidering that majority of them aren't fantastic singers. like out of 7 today, only 2-3 are not bad. i think that's pretty bad. but yea..

anyway, heard from bel that channel5's showing the opening match for world cup! woohoo. so exciting! but i still feel that we should watch it at someone's house. it adds on to the thrill this way! yay! well oh well. im so looking forward to this coming june. which is like tml!

on the other hand, i dun really want june to come. considering that once the holiday ends, mid year CTs come. that marks my death date. for slacking these few days. and i really do not have the motivation to move on and study! i just wanna sleep my days away. in my oh-so-comfortable-and-cozy bed! haha. zzz. i cant imagine myself mugging away for exams again. sigh.

furthermore, there's choir tml afternoon! wad the hell. i hate it la. its like so many practices. no breather at all. sigh.. we should take a really long break, coz we didnt get to after the concert you see. and its really bad and unfair! but i guess, i'll get the really LONG break after xiamen trip. coz i dunnit to sing anymore, just mug and study and mug and study for As. ohhh, its sucha scary thought. *shivers*

oh btw, i heard from jingkang that paul twohill's from cat high! *shudders* another cat high gentlement. ooops, no offence! heh. its just. hard to imagine. i think he'll look weird in cat high uniform now. anyways, i think paul looks like he's 23 more than he's 17. haha. oh well. ahhh! tml's the result show! but i guess its obvious who will get through. =)

anyway, went back to school for a short one and a half hour gp session with mrs chng, as insisted by hanquan. and our dear hanquan was late! hah. wad the. but yeah. i will not say that its fruitful today. coz i must admit, im guilty of wandering away in my thoughts during some parts of the discussions. oops. couldnt really focus la, human beings tend to be lethargic during afternoons. and i dun drink a cup of coffee everyday like mrs chng does. so yea, maybe that explains it all! haha. she'll nv admit that she's addicted to coffee, but we all know she is.

i think i should try to be gramatically correct and error-free everytime i blog, in an attempt to improve my language. this will help me score for my gp! i think i should also write more. anyway, did i mention that i tried doing my maths revision assessment and i realised that i've returned almost everything to my maths tutor for the past topics? i think im so dead. i dun think i have that much time to re-learn everything as suggested by mark. oh man!

oh yea! yesterday was the band concert! spiritanto! haha. anyway, was a teeny bit late for meeting srn and jo. wend was ill. huaa was late. she was still hanging ard bukit timah when we were all at city hall. that idiot. anyway, we had dinner at bk, sat there talked and chit chat about the many bungs and cedarians stories in innova. heh. aj is definitely not as happening.

and finally huaa came and we went to buy flowers and presents for marie. and off we went, heading for vch. reached there kinda early i should say. anyway, the concert was not bad i guess. i mean i seldom watch band concerts. to be frank, many of the soloists couldnt make it. but our dear marie did well! i think jesper was not bad too. but erm dragon.. i wasnt paying attention! ooops. generally, its an average concert. but it sure serves as somewhat a gathering for us! smiles smiles!

went for supper after that and woah, reached home at 11 plus.

hmmm, i guess that's abt it for now. shall sign off here, tatax~

holiday...
today's quite relax, coz there's no extra lesson, no choir, no nothing! woohoo. but its just that i woke up late and didnt manage to do wadeva i planned to. haha. anyway, was watching tv, kang xi lai le. so funny. the little kids are soooo adorable.. and it seems like all the little kids in taiwan has girlfriends. haha. so funny. i think they are so cute.. haha. especially the little caucasian boy! edison! but his dad treat him like a little puppy. haha. his dad just kept ordering him, like sit, stand, lie down, roll over. like dog eh! but edison did all these very adorably! haha.

sian, i got attacked by my cat again. so painful! i have so many more scars. zzz.

anyway, there's band concert later. hope it'll be nice! woah, will be meeting hua, wend and jo later. so long nv see jo. haha. i think we should have more of such outings!

anyway, i think i should go and do some maths! tatax~

a little detour
watched da vinci with mark today. hmmm, i will not say its as fantastic as the book. coz they took out some parts. which they felt was unimportant and time consuming, i assume. the whole movie focused more on the search for the holy grail. anyway, missed a little of the front part, coz someone was late.....

anyway, ya. something was amiss in the whole movie. there's less explanations on other minor stuff that makes a difference. like wad's a fibonnaci sequence, how it is formed. mmm, it's actually more than this. in short, the book's more interesting. and they changed the storyline a bit..

after the movie, went to eat and headed back home. mark dropped off earlier to rush to book in.

dunno why, but just feel quite sian today. that's why i didnt feel like talking, i guess. zzz. i think im pms-ing. feeling quite depressed, i also dunno why. and i overslept on the way home. and ended up in pasir ris. walked around for a while. there's so many new shops at the mrt station. but i never had the time to stop by when i had to rush off for choir, or that its not open yet. but actually, these shops are not exactly very interesting. headed back home. i dunno why i felt like tearing. i seriously do not know why.

reached home, and was greeted by an empty house. oh well, not exactly, midnight's still there. well, really feeling quite sian. maybe i should go and take a nap or something..

anyway, ive been listening a lot to blind man> by darkness. i think its sucha nice and sad song. oh well, shall sign off, tatax~

Tell me why the blind man cries
Oh, he sheds a tear because he just can't hear the children singing
How he used to fantasize
Of standing next to some children who are doing singing
And the shoulders get colder and colder
And his tears
And his tears fall on deaf ears

Falling apart
At the seams and no-one seems to care
You can't cry forever
Eileen wouldn't want you to, I swear

Now he's just an empty shell
Oh, since Eileen died the other side seems so appealing
Compared to this living hell
Oh, she haunts his sleep, his wounds too deep for any healing
With his arteries starting to harden
She is gone
She is gone and it's all wrong

Falling apart
At the seams and no-one seems to care
You can't cry forever
Eileen wouldn't want you to, I swear
So there.

woohoo..
hmmm, lemme see wad happened this week. basically, being the last of sch, i didnt really feel like going to school. but that's kinda wrong u see. so yea. and my classmates are all quite surprised to see me in sch on friday. hahaha. am i really THAT slack? zzz.

anyways, wed was half day! yay. coz of the many achievements! or rather the only 2. haha. school ended at 915! woohoo! coz miss lee shifted civics to the 3rd period, so that everyone can go off early. BUT! there's still choir. sigh. oh well.. after choir, there's meeting. and everything ended at ard 145pm. normal school day. went to shop.. or rather window shop. coz i got no money then. there was me, bel, lala, zx, tc and malcolm. actually just the girls la. the guys went to check the sakae buffet thing. then we went to join them. and yep we had buffet! ate so much! i almost couldnt move la. but decided to go window shop somemore to help with the digestion. haha. we yep, we went. shop from shop to shop in heeren. but the guys just sat at some corner to digest. haha. i saw this nice nice converse pull over! its black (or dark grey?) with green 'converse' word in front. its $45.90 i think... heh..

mmm, walked ard a lot.. and finally, everyone decided to go home. was so tired after walking so much. and of course, eating so much. and was so broke then.

thurs was long and boring. and i had a cwo with pe dept to clear. but lucky me, it was raining and there's nuthing for me to do! coz dawn tan wanted me to pluck weeds. but too bad. and she still signs me off. how nice of her. then there's choir.

friday was another long and boring day. went choir room to slack and sleep. it is actually quite comfortable to slp there. haha. like my small little home. but its quite freaky to leave the door unlocked and slping in it alone. you'll nv noe who will come in and what may happen to you. haha.

anyway, there's saturday practice. morning meeting at 815. damn early la! but surprisingly im not late! hey hey.. im so proud of myself. after that, we had combine allllll the way. no small gp, no nuthing. quite boring. just sectionals and combine. zzz. im sry to say this, but i thought it wasnt very fruitful, other than erm binama? i guess. actually, im not very sure. i just feel that everything's very long. and taxing.

oh oh! went bugis with bel after choir! had lunch at the hawker centre there and we went to shop!! woohoo! walked ard a lot. bought earrings and 2 tops. she bought one. i think the shop that we bought our top from is really quite cool. they have lotsa nice designs leh, and its so ulu! or rather way too far away. so it seems ulu. well well, i quite like my new t shirt! smiles smiles!

we went into this shop that sells bottoms. i was just looking at this pair of shorts and the salesgirl just came and took it and wanna let me try, and on the way to the dressing room, took more shorts for me to try. oh man! so scary.. haha. she wanted to take more la! so scary. but its kinda fun. haha. considering that at that moment, both me and bel had totally no money already! haha. but i just stopped her from showing me more bottoms, and just try the 3 she had for me to try. and so i went. i like the shorts i was looking at! its kinda nice. mmmmm, lovely. but its like 21+ after discount. yes, SINGAPORE SALES! the other knee length shorts was kinda nice.. i'd love to try a three quarters, but im quite worried that i'll get slaughter, coz i wun be buying. but i just kept asking her abt the prices. while i change. she's quite freaky, just barging in when im changing half way. wth. kept molesting me. ok la, not really, but yea. i mean salesgirls always molest ppl one. esp those enthu kind. then ya, i gave back all the shorts, reluctantly. i want the pair of shorts! i thought i almost couldnt leave the place la. i said i dun want. then she said, "huh, i let u try so many and u're not buying?" i appeased her by saying i'll come back later. lols. oops.

well of course, me and bel went home. hahaha. she wanted to con bel into trying the shorts too. haha. not really con la. but yea. i want the shorts leh. i hope my mummy will gimme money to buy them. though i noe its kinda bad. but. *whines* just once in a while.. but i guess i'll feel bad too la. after all, my dad's not earning a lot. i feel quite guilty suddenly. but i still love the shorts. and i love the converse pull over more! hahaha.

ho ho ho. holiday's finally here! however, there seems to be like choir pracs every other day. kwei and the j1 comm are the main once deciding the time. i think. j1 comm must really think they can cope with their mid year CT with all these pracs, i guess. i mean even if the pracs are in the 1st 2 weeks, it doesnt mean you'll be able to concentrate. and leme tell you, you cant! or at least i cant. you'll just be so drained la. i always feel drained after choir. other than today. hahaha. but seriously, i think i'll die la. dunno wad will happen to me. there seems to be a lot going on during the holidays. and this one month seems kinda short, when its so packed. sigh. there's many things i wanna do during the holidays too noe..

anyway, i heard the guitar concert was quite bad, heard that there's ppl walking out during the concert. kinda rude. guess that's coz i wasnt there. hahaha. it would be more fun with me ard. muahaha.

aiya, so tired now.. zzz. shall sign off here. tatax~

cont'd
i think we should have more of these kinda thing (bball finals). its really fun! and it'll really boost the aj spirit, and create a sense of belonging to the sch. like for example, let us all go for national track and field meet!! I'D LOVE TO GO!! =)) if not i dun see the point of all j1s having to go through cheer sessions during orientations. so yep.. smile smile! tatax~

bball finals!
hmmmm, lemme see where to start. there was bball semi finals on monday. unfortunately, there was choir, so we couldnt go and support. but they won anyway. then, on wed, there was vball final. again, there's choir and we couldnt go as well. so yea. but they won champion! so proud of them! although i dun really noe anyone of them. but hey, i think they must have been really great.

see see! there are so many choir practices. zzz. and i feel that we are not say very good, but i must agree with dj that there are improvements here and there. but yea. this tiny part of me is just telling me not to go to xiamen. but there's no more backing out, now that the dateline for pulling out is over. but hmmm. i dunno. esp after wed practice, i heard a lot about wad happened in choir, abt certain ppl, saying certain things and wadeva, causing lotsa unhappiness. and so many more ppl pulling out. it just made me feel damn sian and tired and not feel like going anymore la. its like, im really tired after concert and stuff and we are going full blast straight after the concert with little/no rest at all! i mean, wad the hell. we are no robots.

feeling quite stressed and worried for choir. this pressure and the many ppl pulling out may just be the reason that caused me to feel like pulling out. i feel that im just going to choir out of responsibility now. i noe its wrong. but i cant help it. well, at least i have this tinge of responsibility unlike some other ppl. zzz.

but then again, i think i still do enjoy singing, just that this choir is somewhat different from the choir last year. i think i enjoyed myself more last year. i miss the seniors! sigh.. i think we should go all out now and no more backing out. if not, it'll affect us all in a bad way. sometimes i just feel like crying by just thinking about choir, esp all the problems.. sigh.

anyway, i think i digressed a lil too much. i was talking about the various matches. and since bball won the semi, they got into finals, naturally. and its today! went to tpy sports hall to support with almost the whole sch, i think. so cool la. ive nv so many ajcians gather together to cheer for one another. really nv. i kinda miss those good old cedar days.

but yea, the game went on, with us taking lead 1st and then taken over by hci. ya, we were against hci. then its draw, and they lead and draw and they lead... we seldom take lead. but its a close fight. though its quite obvious that we'll eventually lose. at least i thought so. but i think aj bball boys team put up a great fight. i think they off form today. at least that's what many said. coz ive nv really watched them play before. many shoots were off la. i think they are too nervous. hmmmm. but yea, great job! though i hope that they win. coz hci team was so damn arrogant la. should show them some colours!

anyway, i was with zx, shaun, sharon kaur, bel, denise and caryn. i think that's how u spell. but anyways, i was cheering my head off when the game started. but got tired after screaming too much. and i just kept clapping to the rythm of the cheer. until my palms hurt now. aj team cried after they lost leh. i felt like crying also. dunno why, its so saddening la. all of them cried. ive nv seen darren liau cried leh. well, its not like ive seen hon chan or any of them cried. my point is, you'll just feel like crying after seeing this heartbreaking moment. i really hope they'll win. and hci was as arrogant as ever.

oh ya, met huaa there. haha, supporting aj. lol. during prize presentation, saw trina!! vj girls team got 2nd. was shouting for her. i must agree with huaa and wendy that she's quite deaf. but at least she heard us.

after the game ended, met sheila outside the hall. she's always complaining that her school has got no eye candies. and she actually said aj has a hand full. lols. well, maybe...

anyway, walked to the interchange with yuk, hq, lala, shaun, zx. tc joined us there. we were singing choir songs on the way there. and its actually quite embarassing, coz there were a lot of ppl looking at us, ppl we noe and ppl we dunno, ppl from other jcs.. and eventually we stopped singing. but we actually made it quite far. we were almost reaching hdb hub when we stopped singing. haha.

hq went off, the rest of us sat down, chit chat and gossiped. met angel. then she left after a while. then we went to buy drinks and went to some stairs at the int to talk. then we met vincent, and lala and zx went off with him. shaun went home. leaving me, yuk and tc behind.

then we went hkhk, coz i wanted to collect photos and they wanted to take a look. so we went. haha. BUT the office was closed. so we went off.

well well.. its kinda late now and i still hafta wake up early for choir tml. yes! choir again! zzz. that means its time for bed. tatax~

voyaje: en fatasia
the concert is finally over!! phew.. eventhough i wun say its fantastic, i think it's still alright. at least there's no major mistakes. but erm, i heard from many ppl that i stick out for 2nd half. sian. but its over already, so who cares. oh, but i must really thank all those who came. huaa and marie! thanks for your balloons! thankew all those who came and jesper, sharon kaur, yizhen, jiemin and alicia for the flowers!

it was so messy during the concert la.. i was rushing here and there, i also dunno why. and we din really have time to take photos, unlike last year! so un-fun la! eeyer. i still think last yr's concert was better. anyways, concert's finally over and i had a hard time packing everything, coz its just so messy. but i managed to stuff everything into the 2 paper bags, and i gave them all to my mum, along with the flowers and balloons. haha. so i can thon without worries!

had supper at lao pat sat or old market (direct translation) for supper, then we went merlion there to sit ard and talk and stone. btw, quite a lot of ppl went lao pat sat, but only yuk, dj, malcolm, hanquan, mark and me tried to thon. ya, tried to. everyone ended up falling aslp there. haha. like some homeless ppl. then yuk, malcolm and hq shared cab home coz yuk had gastric.

i went home to find out that i was locked out, coz they ledged the door from the inside. wth. my brother just wanna lock me out leh! he told me go home earlier, despite me telling him im thoning. but anyway, ya, din go home, dj and i went mark's place to slp. so poor thing, the 2 homeless ppl. haha.

reached home at ard 5plus in the afternoon la. coz mark and i went for lunch and it started raining and the rain just wouldn't stop. so i couldnt go home! so its not really my fault that i cant go home on time okay. haha.

im feeling quite slack now, with nuthing to do, coz there isnt too much hw, i think, though ppl like kc and darren are supposed to tell wad hw we have and apparently they left SCH without telling me that. so ya. i bet there's econs hw, like usual.

i want more holidays. feeling quite tired, mentally. choir is quite draining, stressful and depressing at times. when news of more ppl not going to xiamen with us keep coming to me. part of the reason im going is coz of the ppl. but now.. its just damn sian la. all the lame excuses they are giving..

hmmm, quite tired already, shall sign off here. tatax~

lalala
ho ho ho.. its been so long since i last updated, as usual. well well, lemme see. i wanna talk abt the pulau hantu trip 1st! went there last weekend with my brother, zaid, shuanghui, lihui, calvin, kerrin, peter, john, sicong, hairul and friend. (i think his name is weize) anyway, that morning had choir, till afternoon and i rushed home just in time to pack and go. went to meet them up, then took the boat to pulau hantu. the whole island is empty. as in no one on it. just trees, grass, beach and sea. haha. quite fun. reached there at ard 7, i think. then we started pitching tent and setting up fire for bbq!

and soooooon, it's pitch dark! its really dark la. the whole island has got no light at all, not even the one and only toilet on the island. but its a great experience la. but the guys, considering that they are of certain age, they are very concerned with the election results. so after dinner, we all sat ard the radio to listen to the results and i fell aslp halfway through. woke up at ard 1+ in the morning. and we decided to explore the island! btw, did i mention that it was raining when we were listening to the results?

so ya, we set off to explore the island! in total darkness. quite cool. cant see anything. haha. well, not totally, just very limited. and so we walked, and i sang songs. lalala. and i sang short people to shuanghui. so funny. and she ignored me. it's quite cold at night, especially at the beach. brr. we wanted to walk more, until there's lightning and thunder again. so we headed back to our campsite. the lightnings are very scary. coz its like, no building for us to take shelter, and its like so dark on the island, with the sudden lightning, u can see everything on the island coz its just so small. wad if u just happen to see anything? considering that its pulau HANTU leh. haha. and i thought i saw a black figure next to the bushes when a lightning striked. freaky! but i din tell anybody till the next day.

went back to the campsite and talked and sang songs. kerrin and all seem to be falling aslp, coz they were all lying down. so me, kor, calv and zaid went to some other hut or pavillion to play card and had night snacks, cocktail!! yum yum. there were lotsa ants and bugs though.

after some time, i think ard 4am, we went back to slp. and i woke up at ard 7 or 8 the next day. washed up and had breakfast!! yummy. omelette! prepared by our chef, peter! milo by weize. and sandwiches. john tried to cut up coconut from the ground. din dare to try, coz they are obviously over-riped and wouldnt taste nice. haha.

after breakfast is time for a swim! woohoo! went into the sea. the oh so shallow sea. got onto zaid's raft and paddled across to the opposite island. so fun! haha. and its so tiring. i should just walk across la. haha. went there and explored ard. and zaid and i named it tong island, coz i landed on it 1st! haha. we explored the island 1st, the rest were still changing across. and we saw this small bird with red wings! we continued exploring the island quite a nice and quite place. i saw this black small creature jumping into the sea! looked like a seal, though i doubt it is. went back to the raft and its gone! the rest swam over and took it away. haha. anyway, we saw the red bird again! so we decided to see wad it really is. we threw twigs and stuff towards the area where it landed and we realised that its a huge grasshopper! not bird. and it flies! so coool. reached the beach and stupid zaid carried me up and dumped me into the oh so shallow sea. and i scratched my palm and hit my hip. idiot!!

anyway, its quite fun waddling ard, playing with the stones, throwing them, making them jump 2 to 3 times. and do u noe u can use coloured stones to draw? i was drawing on shuanghui and myself. haha. and we accidentally spashed all the colours onto ourselves and it got stained on out tee. sianx.

after some time, we went to bathe and go home! finally. quite tired already. after we reached the mainland s'pore, we went ayer rajah food centre for lunch. and sent everyone home and finally got home. couldnt really do much la. quite sian and tired. so didnt really touch on my work.

that's more or less the whole trip. i quite enjoyed it. and i dun mind going there again. having the whole island to urself. quite cool..

anyway, as ive mentioned earlier, there was practice on saturday, despite it being the election day. we had it at cat high. got shaun's dad to open up the school for us. quite cool and honoured. the reason for us doing that, coz kwei got really angry with our lousy standard on thursday evening. coz we sang really lousily. and the feeling really sucked. and kwei sometimes just suck la. he just anyhow conduct also lo. urgg. makes everyone feel damn sian and lousy. and so we had practice on friday, saturday, monday, wednesday and its concert!

yes, concert this thurs. quite scary. though i think everything is more or less in place and everything should go well and that tickets are selling out. left really little tickets. and im glad, despite my lousy publicity =X. but i hope kiat goes for my concert.. anyone willing to go with her?? poor her cant go with shunhong like last year k.

anyway, quite sian now, dun feel like doing anything now. just feel like resting or rather slacking. haha. zzz.. sometimes choir can cause unhappiness too. despite the fun and joy it brought to me. its ok to feel stressful, but it shouldnt be a reason for you not to go xiamen. i mean who's not stress now? stress from school, family and kwei. its sucha lousy reason.. i noe we are not doing well enough for xiamen, but that shouldnt be the reason for us to draw out now, all the more we should stick with choir and not leave it in the lurch! sigh. im in fact quite disappointed, ive always thought you're very committed..

sigh.. one more day! i miss him..

my computer just hang. i shall sign off here. tatax~