oh well..
hmm, i think i was too worked up the other time. probably too stressed up. but ya, im ok already! =) anyway, there was OP rehearsal on tuesday. it was well. screwed up. unprepared! nvm. i'll do a much much better job tml! *yay* after that went home and back to sch again for the OGL interview. i tot that day wasnt a very nice day for me to talk ya. since kc said i scored quite low for the interview but still made thru. *yay* *big claps* for me!!

anyways, it was NE day yday. yes, i didnt pon as planned. coz i was somehow persuaded by miss lee and jas to pay the 6bucks. and since i paid, i had to go. dun waste the money maa. hahaha. oh my, so yuhua. but ya, i went. and ITS SOOO BORING CAN! the stupid guide kept giving us the wrong info, treating us like little kids, kept threatening us. sooo irritating la. feel like punching him in his face. but as civilised citizens of singapore we didnt, we merely protested in silence. some similarity in our society huh. ok la, we did try to do something but failed. haha. we were like singing nursery rhymes to cover his voice, but eventually, we ran out of songs to sing. that is like how sad, when there's so many out there, yet we are still capable of running out of them. but ya, that's the fact, and he continued talking, blabbering untrue facts. wad crap. waste of time can.

we went padang, and looked at it from the bus. how dumb. then we went labrador. like huh?! go there for wad? its so bloody hot there lo. i nv like that place. after that, we went to national community leadership institute. some dunno wad grassroots exhibition. quite boring. i wasnt even looking at it i was just bz looking for answers for the ws. but in the end cant find any. so dumb!! then went to temples. sian! i was from a buddhist school lo. and ive been to taoist temple. so there's nuthing much interesting to me. i tot we should have gone to bugis there if we really wanna visit temple. but ya, nvm. feel so cheated laa. miss lee still say fun.. bluff me!

went back to sch still have some seminar. zzzzzzz.. then had meeting with alex lee for nx yr's x-cty. guess wad? im in charge of publicity! why am i always pub?? sianx. wanted to do mc station/refreshments/recording one leh. but it turned out mc seemed easier. but linda was eyeing that position. so i ended up pub again, coz no one wanna be. but after reading my scope of work today, it seems to be the easiest, since x-cty is compulsory. i just need to go and make announcements abt it. make posters to increase its awareness and prog sheets. that's abt all. hahaha. ok la, nuthing much to do also. lolx. actually i can do all there on my own. but i think i want help! bleahx.

today there's like nuthing much. just that i was late for school but not booked. hahaha. im so ingenious! i was chasing aft 86 and it went off, and hence IM LATE! so idiot lo that driver. i should have noted down the car plate no. but anyway, i purposely alight 2 stops after aj, then walked back, in hope of delaying time and praying that nelson sim would be gone. but when i reach sch, he's still there! dealing with a latecoming case. so i silently walked in with the other j2s. lolx. but he found out abt it. die, he recognise me la! but i walked briskly away and hid inside audi where maths lecture was abt to start. tralala! bleahx! *shhh* dun tell nelson sim abt it. haha. i shall not be late tml!

was supposed to present during PW again. but apparently guru is either tired or lazy, he want us to present tml. better still, more time to prac. im quite bored now. yay! my shuffle is fully charged! i hope it working normally again. but i think i'll still borrow my sis's thumb drive, since guru's laptop may not be able to read my shuffle.

oh man, my eyes are quite tired now. i feel like sleeping le! i must persevere to finish da vinci 1st! and i heard ms leong is coming aj!!! im sooooo happy abt it! i so miss her can. i wonder if she'll be telling stories to us every wed not. i miss those days. and i'll fully appreciate it, like how i did, the time she told us the last story abt the apple tree. i miss miss leong! and i promise i'll nv call her names! ok la, shall sign off here. tatax~

FREAKS!!!

VIDEO!

i feel so cheated. i am quite disappointed too, by ppl's behaviour. wad's the freaking problem la. screw everyone! maybe i shouldnt get myself too involved in things and expect too much from others. then i wouldnt feel so stressed up. maybe i should be more laid back, and let the rest do the job. anyway, its like, no one is oblige to help or anything. well, ya.. freaks.

tongx, why the hell do u wanna make urself all stressed and drained? stop being so stupid la! just stop bothering kaex! stop being sucha kpo la. grab everything onto ur shoulder. tell me when will u learn?? just go and sleep, finish ur da vinci la. who cares abt OP. ya, who cares.. who cares if i fail badly. who cares if the whole world gets an A and me getting a B? its not really the grade now. but it just human nature that disgust me. wad crap! why am i part of this society?! why must have similar behaviours at time, that i dun wanna?! damn.. f*ck off! screw u ppl!

JAY!!
went to do pw yday morning. and guess wad? i tot its at novena, so i alighted there, in the end i was supposed to alight at newton. nvm, i got to newton. and i took the wrong bus to kc's hostel. and i ended up walking all the way back to his hostel. think abt 6-7 stops? not bad eh. haha. but i was almost 40min late by the time i reached. haha. oops. tralala. so far, we had some main points onto our slides already. yay! and some animations by me! haha. we're going to do shooting tml! =))

anw, aft completing part of our op slides. only me and kiathau turned up. the rest sick. kiathau left early, so left me and kc. i dragged kc to tp! haha. went to eat udon! at the foodcourt beside macs in the int. its not bad la. haha. before that we walked into the da pai dang, not noeing that it's so damn expensive! i dun even have enuff money to pay for it. so we slipped away after the person finish introducing the dishes to us and left us thinking wad to order. lolx.

after eating, we went walking ard tp! nono, correction. i dragged him to lib. and i borrowed some bks. then walked ard. he got tempted to buy little brother. haha. its a VERY NICE korean movie. a very touching one. and i got tempted to pre-order jay's album! oh man!!! i was sooo happy la! i din bring enuff money k. and he paid for me 1st. yay!! and i got a giant poster!! *grinx* i just couldnt stop grinning the moment i got hold of the poster. hahaha. then we went ntuc, then i rushed off for hkhk with the poster. I LOVE JAY! =D

it was wanling's bday yday. wanling is a cute lil girl with very big eyes! if i get the chance, i'll post her photos. time passed very quickly. and it was already dinner time! after dinner, we sang bday songs for wanling. and borong and sua just kept leading everyone to sing one lang after another. lolx. and ya, we just kept singing and singing to the same tune. laoshi just cant do anything abt it. so funny.

the lil ali (zheng xiang) is also very cute! u'll just feel like pinching his cheeks la. then there's another cute lil boy boy acting as the qiang dao, think his name is yesheng. his eyes soooo damn big la! like in shock liddat. he's like constantly in shock k! so cute! and his like blur blur one. always dance wrongly. lolx. now then i realise there are so many adorable kids in hkhk.

anyway, today, i did nuthing but read da vinci. i noe im slow. but ya. almost halfway thru already! haha. and i forgot all abt I&R. and im just abt to start doing it. pray for me! haha. think i should end here ba. tatax~

dumb school..
that's just wad i felt after reading miss lee's blog abt xueqin. although im not really close to her, but she's my classmate ma. i feel kinda sad. there's just this overwhelming feeling. i guess its coz of the outcome. this thought nv occured to me. i always thought quhan would be in greater danger compared to her. it is dumb to ask ppl to appeal, when they look at the academic results lo. the ppl here are way too inflexible. they just like to strangle u till ur face turn purple. just like how they force ppl to drop subjects i guess. at least im not prepared to drop anything yet. but im forced to make up my mind. sigh. i mean there's no point in appealing for 4 subj, i'll definitely get rejected. it is just for me to buy time. i wonder wad the class will do on monday. sian. feel damn unmotivated now. there are too many problems that just kept coming. i noe we hafta live life, but it just impossible not to worry at all abt tml. esp when there are so many things happening ard the world. i think its perfectly alright to worry, but not to get paranoid that's all. there's some serious problem with the whole system and the f*cked up society. sry to use the f word here. im supposed to be pure and innocent XP. im just a lil contaminated here, in this society..

anyways, i have this sudden fear of the future. this feeling seems so familiar, during the period of time when i lost myself. it is frightening, i hate this feeling. the feeling of emptiness. all i can do is cry. with regard to wad kc wrote in class blog, i think its him la. it is always ez to ask ppl not worry, and live for the future. but the future is pitch dark, who wouldnt be worried. it is always tough to take the first step to venture into the unknown. it takes a lot of courage. i dunno how to put my message across clearly, but just that, it is always ez to comfort others. when it comes to doing the things on our own, it is way to tough. afterall, wad we say dun equal to the reality.. but then again, wad is reality? can reality be real? is the world real? have u ever thought abt these? have u ever think that all these might just be a dream, and the u wake up the nx day, all ur troubles are gone and u're glad that its just a dream?

well well, i dun really noe wad im saying in this entry la, just thoughts here and there. just hope everything is fine for everyone. tatax~

physics!!
hmmm, i think i didnt mention abt my result.. well, its CODE. erm, not very nice with the O there. and i hafta drop subj leh. sianx. talked to several tchrs yday. and i kinda made up my mind wad to drop already. and its gonna be physics. though i got an E for it. but yday aft choir, jiemin came and told me she got B for prelim, though she got F for promo. waaa.. but i think i'll still stick with econs ba. coz i dun really need physics in future. but i haven fill up the drop form. supposed to hand in today, but i didnt go sch XP. haha. oh well. monday then. more time to think anyway.

btw, its not that i wanna follow cg's footsteps laa. it just so happen that we are heading the same direction maa. haha. stupid cg.

oh, i heard from miss lee that my conduct is fair leh! sianx. i shall not be late nx yr. at least not so many times. i hope it'll become better. and i shall not pon sch. maybe one more time and that's it. and if i feel richer, i'll go polyclinic, then it wun affect my conduct. haha. its quite shuang today, slept till 9+. i think im going for a swim later before i go see doc. tralala! pw is getting very tiring and irritating la. anw, i was feeling quite free last night, so i went to do some slides for op already. just the opening and credits. lolx. i love doing the credits part! so many things to play with.

oh ya, yuklum let me listened to ye qu. omg. its so nice! though i couldnt really concentrate while listening, coz i was playing uno stacko with luke they all, but i like it. the chorus is really nice =)) looking forward to nov!

i think there's nuthing much already. tatax~

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damn
screw the stupid network! i just finished typing my part on the new time table thingie and i wanted to send the email and i got dc-ed! and everything's gone! *angry* stupid idiot!!!

anyway, finally, the perf for tan's farewell is over. is that im very happy abt it or wad. its just that, there's no more uni check! yay! and ya, i just revamp my class blog! so nice! *love it*

but im still very angry abt the network now la.......... okiex, nuthing much. sometimes i feel this person is really very irritating leh. whole day yanking at home. so noisy. oh no, i think i dun like a lot of ppl leh. this is bad.. anyway, gtg retype the stuff le. *grr*.. tatax~

COUGH²
lemme recap, tues had pw followed by choir. then had comm meeting, then me, yuk and nuan when to buy materials for choir board. dunno why la, though i slept quite early, i couldnt get up and was all tired on tues..

wed, there's cdp.. did personality test. and im grape/banana.. so wadeva, its abt the same as the DISC test i did last time. just that my C personality disappeared a lot.. lolx. anyway, grape and banana's personalities are so contradicting la.. so i can be predictable or unpredictable, i can be quiet or noisy.. cg said i split personality. lolx.. sooner or later baa.. haha.

aft that had choir again! had rehearsal for tan's farewell. damn crap la. kept making us going up and down the stage and sing. then we had choir prac and me, yuk, nuan, christabel, hannah the spongebob, chin guan and zhi xiong stayed back to help with the board. but we didnt really do anything leh, coz no pics no nuthing to put up.. so, christabel, hannah and zx went off 1st.. i dunno wad we were doing la, but we managed to drag time in the choir room till quite late, abt 7+.. lolx..

thurs, pw again. sian. guru made us hand in wr draft. so we were all rushing to finish it. surprisingly my grp rushed too. hahaha. sounds like we were always very prepared. but its just that, we normally managed to finish up. but ya, we completed it. after sch, there's no choir! but i went choir room anyway to make the notice board and stuff. chin guan, yuk and her classmate was there. so went there sit ard, did some stuff, the big sign board, which liang hao's supposed to wear. then liang hao came.. christabel too.. but she went off after a while. anyway, we were playing stacko, haha. and we managed to sabo yuk, making her the china bimbo. haha. then cg and yujie came. liang hao went to disturb yuk la, and she ran off. anyway, after a while liang hao went off, followed by yujie. left the 2 CGs and me. haha. meddle ard, until ard 7+ again lo. then made the old cg take bus with me. lolx. then went to develop photos.

friday, last day of the week! but it was a very bad day for me la. nuthing much happened in class. anyway, its just lecture ma. then ya. went choir room continue deco. oh, before that got rehearsal again! and ms yiak and the vp said my skirt too short lo. er, wadeva.. but we dunnit to wear gown on that day! ok.. nvm... after that dumb rehearsal, continued with the deco. chin guan and me went to the reading room and saw guitar and harmoc's banner all put up nicely lo. and choir got nuthing but a green board. so pathetic can. and we hurried back to choir room and started painting banner lo. damn stressful la.. tennis spent 2 days painting outside choir room and we spent 2 hours. lolx. anyway, aft the banner, i couldnt reach home on time to collect the photos lo! i was on the verge on crying can! did so much, left photos to be completed, but i din manage to collect them, coz i reached home way too late. sian lo.

coz i called home, my bro used dial up, then my mum nv pick up her mobile phone. and she said no one called. wadeva. of course she cant hear when the phone line is engaged and she left her hp somewhere far from her.. wadeva. i was quite mad la. then my sis.. i called her at ard 8.30, but she didnt go and collect earlier lo. everytime wait till last min lo. i shouldnt have called her. should have called my brother laaa. reached home i was damn attitude la. somemore my head was like splitting apart lo. was having a bad headache lo. then the moment i reached home my mum said something very ridiculous la. and it just made things worse. damn sucky la...

saturday. finally, the openhouse. reached sch early! then yay! it was so fun laaa. our hardwork paid off.. i guess. and i hope. though i didnt really do much during the openhouse. i was just running ard holding those aa props i made. lolx. so fun! but im sooo tired la. its the preparation part. everything was so last minute. anyways, after that, i rushed to hkhk for the sm course!

oh my, its sure not ez to be a sm la. i feel so pressurised. to be a sm, u must super duper good at time management which i am NOT. and u must be VERY organised, and that's NOT me either. so sian, dun feel like going for the course anymore. but since i started on it, might as well finish it.. after that, grabbed a bite and waited at hkhk for prac to start. so slack. everyday in hkhk is slack la. at least for my role, i think. other than when liu laoshi asked us(vic, pinkie, sining and me) use the chairs as doors and made us carry it ard during the dance. lolx. its heavy can. tired le la. but if the doors are this heavy, i think i'll have strong arms at the end of the performance. lolx! we basically wasted our time there talking, coz its always not our turn. haha. after that still got debrief lo! and it dragged till 9+. reached home damn late and im all tired.

fell onto the sofa and slpt till 2+ when my mum started waking me up and making go to my bed. she enjoys doing this la. i mean, since i fell aslp, just lemme continue slping laa. so wadeva k. and im quite sticky coz of all the running ard. so i went to bathe! now that my hair is almost dried, i can go to bed! but i no longer feel slpy thnx to my mum. maybe she wanna revenge! coz of my attitude the other night.

anyway, later 10am still got sm course. guess i better get some slp. oh ya. falling sick le la. coughing can. i hate coughs. it takes a long time to recover. sian. somemore no medicine helps. damn it la. must be coz of all the slping late, too stressed up or simply not drinking enuff water.. great. then maybe this coming tuesday i dunnit to perform and get picked on.

oh ya, there's something else i wanna say! its abt the choir. its just that no one's helping out lo. maybe i should allocate job. but coz of my stupid personality, i trust myself more. but i will learn to. and ya, there's someone, whom shall not be named. i think this person is quite irresponsible lo. this is just my personal view, and its not back stabbing or wadeva, i just dunno how to tell this someone. its like this person, ok, is just irresponsible laaa. im just not very happy with such attitude.

sigh, alright, nitex! tatax~

oohoo!
yay! promos is finally over!! *grinx* its been like how long since i blogged lo. almost one month! omg.. im so impressed with myself! one month nv blogged! although i must admit that i didnt really mugged hard during the one month, but i feel quite prepared for the papers ba. at least i hope so. *smiles* think positive!! just praying hard that i'll at least pass everything. or at least 3 subjects. as long as i can promote!

anyways, promos has finally ended yday! then straight after the last paper (econs paper 1&2) ended, went to meet serene, marie, huaa and wend (she joined us later) then we went shop²! so long nv shop.. went j8 walk a while. then wend went home. and the rest of us went guanyin miao to bai² with marie's mum.. haha. so funny. like after exams it'll help. but anyways, we did. and after that we went bugis to shop! although didnt buy wad we intended to.. or rather me and srn only. went home. coz needta watch pride!

was all tired when i reached home. anyway, pride last episode today. oh man. i simply love the ending laa.. haha. *smiles²* aiya, its so tiring today la. also dunno why. just damn slpy. and had choir. and we were like so damn rusty la, so long sing together. but i think it went well towards the end haha. went to buy materials for choir board just now with yuklum and zinuan. and i just realised nuan is also cantonese. haha. surprised!

anyway, ya, since im tired, and im hungry now. i shall go and eat and sleep! haha. sounds so piggish. urg. but ya, tatax~