boohoo
wed had treatment. then i fell down on the escalator while walking up. coz i was late, so i sorta rushed up, and i tripped on my own slippers and fell down! fell forward, and scratched my shin! so embarrassing! i quickly got up and walk off, as if nuthing happened. but taking each step with extra care XP. when i got to the clinic, i looked at my shin. the skin was peeling off, ouch. and its swollen lo. boohoohoo. sure enuff, the nx day, there's a bruise, with 2 obvious scratch line in the middle of the bruise. lolx. quite painful. still a lil swollen i guess.

thurs had choir. mr kwei was in not bad mood. good enuff. lolx. ended erm, at the normal time ba.

today.. after chi, me, jas, chinthin and kh were gossiping outside lt1. lolx. so fun! talked for quite long. then later walked out with jas, then at the driveway, i stepped on a stupid small lil stone and i twisted my angle and fell down!! OUCH!! this is damn pain. when i 1st stare at my left knee, it was white, really white. i was damn scared la. coz its watery, yet white. after 2 seconds, it started bleeding like hell. damn painful la! the wound quite deep and huge lo. i told myself nv to fall on such road, and i fell. *cries* so painful la!! then jas helped me clean up the wound and stuff. seriously, since i seldom fall, and when i fall its a small wound, i dun really noe how to clean up my wound properly la. damn bad la, this fall. sure got scar one. *cries* after all that, we walked out again.

sigh. feel so dumb to fall coz of a small stupid stone la. *blushes* anyway, after that, reached home. my dad saw my knee wrapped with gauze and he asked wad's wrong. i said i fell down. then he din care abt me le leh. somemore the tone he used is as if i did something wrong lo. wth. then aft i bathe, i sat down at the sofa, then my dad suddenly, "wa! this bad ah!" i was like ya.. he asked if i fell on my knees. i mean, obviously right! then he just continued watching tv. sigh. then my mum was walking ard the house and she din realise my knee was all red and still bleeding. and its quite a big patch lo. i was just wondering how could she have missed it. i tot she just din bother to care abt me. until my dad said i fell down then she was like, "where?" and started asking wad happened. am i really that insignificant at home? that when something happened to me and nobody cares. when i've got something to say, nobody is there to listen. nobody is there to bother abt me. damn sad case. i feel that they only noe how to say, always just talk. but i dun feel their care and concern. dunno la. maybe it is just when i needed it but its not there. but when i dun, i get lots of it. *shrug* just.. dunno la. sian. maybe im just trying to search for a more valid reason for me to cry over rather than just over the pain.

lately.. or rather these few days cant really concentrate on studies. sigh. promos are drawing near. and im still idling my time away... shall go do written report le. oh, and to jas, so sry k.. and PLEASE learn to take care of urself. tatax~

add more oil!
the prev post was meant to be song lyrics.. but i cant read it, so i decided to delete it. oh well.. hmmm, lemme see. ive drawn up a working plan! finally. but till now, i haven been following it. sigh. but i def will follow it de! tml on.. or perhaps today! after i finish my EoM! sigh. EoM.... how to doooo.

anyway, my bro's been rather hostile towards me, i dunno why. wadeva. how very irritating. esp when i uses the comp, he'll like pms liddat. wadeva la. im doing work lo. other than now. idiot la him. u dun expect me to study 24/7 do u?! think im some robots or wad? sucks.

hmmmm, shall sign off here. GAMBATE!! tatax~

smiles =)
hmm, nuthing major happened this week ba. even if have also not meant to be written here. anw, went to watch the maid yday. hmmm, quite scary, not bad for a local production. but there isnt any after effect. nice. haha. after that went to play pool. or rather watch darren, jon and ho seng(think that's how u spell his name) play. only played one game with jon. aft that went home.

just now went to bai bai, pay respect to my grandparents. the last time me and my sis din go, then they said we not fillial and the glass cover turned yellowish, and only my grandparents' turned yellowish, so eerie. this time i went, it really is damn yellowish and only their's. hmmmm.. *scratch head* wonder why. anw, think they went to order new glass just now. aft that, went out a while, then came home. shall study later.

oh ya, talking abt that, tan bee lien warned me, not really warn but reminded me to study for mon's test, coz i failed all prev tests. haha. oops. then yday got mickey tan's talk. sux big time la. he's just there to demoralise everyone. i prefer miss leong's long talks, at least they are motivating. i prefer to be miss leong's lousy students. i miss miss leong!! miss all her short stories every week. i still remember the apple tree story she told us during grad ceremony. sigh. i'll just study real hard now, at least i'll try to. though im not very motivated now. but i shall be a happy girl! =) tatax~

updates!
hmmm, this week is very short. but somehow very tiring and erm, quite bz and slack at the same time. i dunno how that happen. but ya. its just liddat. got lotsa things to do, but nv do. must start revision tml! or rather later. since its sunday already. anyway, hmmm, tues stayed home all day, but wasnt productive. wed did some econs, went out in the evening, intending to watch the maid. in the end only me and darren went and tickets sold out. so we went to eat sakae instead =P. hmmm, thurs. choir! mr kwei was back. he's in extremely good mood. whole day giggling and laughing away. its a good thing. made things much enjoyable. and im so damn shock he noes my name la. i practically stunned ok. hmmm, friday. woke up late. tio cwo. sianx. should have run off when nelson sim went away la! nvm, im guai! bleahx. this is the singapore's education fault. made me liddat. i must learn to do things for myself and not just listen blindly. anyway, had treatment aft sch. then went town buy stuff with darren. mmm, ya.

then today. woke up at 6.50am. rushed to airport to bid farewell to yuta and shinji. but couldnt make it on time. sianx. even got knocked by the bus door on my hand, coz it was damn packed. now it turned into a bruise. *painful* anyway, i still went to join the rest for breakfast. then talk crap a lot, then went home. reached home, started wrapping present and stuff then rush off to sch for farewell. i waited till the whole ceremony was over before rushing off to arts house. took cab there, got there JUST in time. phew.

the show, i like the title.. they lived happily ever after... something liddat. so cute and attractive la. and i think the actings were very natural. and somehow it caused everything to become very draggy. come to think of it, there really isnt much that reminded me of the show, other than the kids. coz they are so cute and adorable la! i was like laughing throughout coz of the kids. esp, the girl girl in green. oh man! she's sooooooooo cute! just look at her, u can stop smiling. heehee. hmmmm, i guess the storyline was quite typical of liting. hmmm, dunno why. her style, maybe. oh ya, and the show a bit short leh. mmmm, and maybe coz they used kids in the show, it seemed a bit unprofessional. coz the kids, as u noe, cant be as serious as the adults. yep. but, looking deeper into the characters, they do reflect a bit of everyone. the competitive part of us, the timid part of us, the over-obedient part of us. hmmmm. liting's script always got some points to ponder. many time ppl hope to go back to the past, and redo wad they felt was wrong. coz u regret. ppl often say, live without regrets! but when u make a decision, there will be opportunity cost. then the more u think, the more u'll regret, u'll often wonder wad will happen if u made other choices. so yep. it is inevitable to feel regretful. this is just my piece of thought! =))

anw, aft the show i thought i saw christine's bf. i forgot his name, so i din call him =P. but he also din call me ma. so dun care la. aft the show, me, kiat, pinkie, borong, vick, sining went ps to eat dinner. after that, me, kiat and pinkie went meridien play pool. then came home le. hmmm, ok, im getting tired.

btw, i realised ive been taking cab more and more often. this is bad. i will run out of cash faster. must wake up earlier everyday! then i can go sch promptly! and ya, i must, MUST slp earlier. and i must must MUST study hard! i shall plan my time for revision. okiex, shall sign off here. tatax~

happy national day!!
went to buy tys on sunday. but couldnt find anything i want or thought useful. couldnt find maths tys. sianx. then phy and econs tys like, not very helpful. bought an econs essay guidebook though. and i finally found Five people you meet in Heaven! bought that and Da Vinci Code. darren bought Secret of the Code. i think that's the title. can borrow aft i finish da vinci. haha. tralala.

yday was national day celebration. damn crap and not nice la. miss those days back in cedar. where celebrations was so much more exciting. unlike aj, no parade coz of the rain. even there is, only like a few ppl march lo. nvm abt that. j1 and j2 celebrate national day separtely. then the video they showed, quite entertaining, but it will nv be as exciting as the celebrations back in cedar. then we had class picnic. damn crap. just ate and talk and stuff. lotsa ppl grabbing yuta to take pics with him. lolx, so poor thing. we were like staring at him and laughing. while he hadta stand there and let ppl take pics of him and with him. haha. poor yuta. after a while, it rained again. OH! did i say that i took cab to sch that day coz i was late, in the end it rained! bahhh..

anw, aft we got into shelter, we played zhong ji mi ma in an attempt to finish the food. well well, lucky me didnt tio anything. after that, we(yuta, ryan, kah hoe, darren, alvin, joyce, chinthin, cheng wee and me) went tp crystal jade for more food. haha. how pig. kiathau, qicai and shao hong joined us there. aft the food, we went ps to watch little brother. while they were buying tics, i went to change book, coz the da vinci i bought was torn. then went back ps to look for them. and guess wad? they started taking neoprints withought waiting for me and darren, coz he pei-ed me go. how irritating. but we joined in the 2nd one. *smiles*

after that, went to watch the movie. its a very touching story. it is quite sad leh. sry ah, think i sobbed a lil too loudly towards the end. sry la, but the tears just flow out uncontrollably. think im the most jia lat one la. coz think only my eyes were red and bloodshot. anw, aft that, me, chinthing, alvin and darren went to for dinner then pool. yes, pool again. the rest went home. well well. reached home quite late that day. tried to finish harry potter, but was too tired.

woke up this morning and its national day!! but dun really have any atmosphere this year leh. dunno why. so sianx and dun feel as patriotic as before. but anyway, finished reading harry potter! finally. i prefer the order of the phoenix. anyway, death of sirius had a much more impact on me than dumbledore's death. maybe coz ppl spilled the beans before i'd even read it. all the anticipations were not there. also maybe coz i like sirius loads. hmmm, oh well. it is sad that dumbledore's dead. sigh. wonder how the story is gonna continue from now on. harry dun wanna continue school le leh....

anyway, was watching the ndp on tv. parade was damn boring. and it seemed very short leh. coz the parade/exhibition of all the weapons and vehicles took up sooo much time. but fireworks was nice. though i merely see it off tv. well, i prefer portugese team de, that sat night at esplanade. it was nice. though there wasnt as much firework as today. but nvm. this yr just dun have the atmosphere as before. its getting from bad to worse. esp when this yr is the 40th bday, should have more emphasis on it, which, apparently was not the case. hmmmm. guess that's abt all. tatax~

cut hair!
smile smile, finally cut my hair. i kinda like my new hairstyle =)). anyway, after i cut my hair, went to meet darren, then went to eat. then went to buy present for daphne. after that, we went to meet qicai they all, to watch fireworks!! reached there found qicai, welyon, joyce, isa, kerrin, marcus phang, yuta and shinji! haha. shinji so cute.... kawaii! waited for quite some time for the fireworks. its damn nice! love it. nicer than last yr's, the one i watched..

anyway, after that, they went to eat, then me and darren went to meridien meet alvin, jon and another guy, dunno his name. played poooool. didnt really play then. after that, qicai, welyon, kerr, yuta and shinji came! haha, then we played pool. well, they are not very gd at pool, according to kerr, they are model students that's why seldom play pool. haha. well, its ok. they are kawaii! that's enuff. lolx. well, well, i won a game teaming with shinji! haha. *smiles* shinji is sooo kawaii. the both of them very modest. very cute. lolx. after that, we share cab home. tralala. how i wish they wun be leaving so soon, nx sat. sigh. lol.

oh, im quite slpy now. but i din do any work today/yday. die die. tml, i mean today, since its sunday le. im going to buy tys! feel like a mugger. urg.. nvm. well, that's all folks! tatax~

smiling brightly
hmmmm, i guess im better. thnx for all those who came and talk to me. really appreciate that. yep. mmmm, lemme see, nuthing major happened. cept that, the jap guys are here! they are sooo cute! yuta and shinji. correction, yuta is sooo cute! shinji is sooo chio! haha. ok, sry. but seriously. can fight with jiesheng. yuta is those shy shy type, so cute! i like his eyes! haha. sry. i think im getting obsessed. and i think yuta noes im constantly staring/peeping at him. lolx.

mmmm, got knocked by a mad indian man at kovan bus stop just now. and he scratched me, behind my knee that part. mad man....

anw, dunno why, this week damn tiring leh. so slpy. dying.. so much to do lo. sianx. ok la, shall sign off here. tatax~

sigh..
a mixture of feeling. dunno if u should call it depression or wad. but im just very moody lately. shrug. dunno wad's going on and stuff, im just sitting through lectures, copying notes, solving problems, blindly. maybe im just pms-ing, moodswing. i feel like crying, but there's no tears. i had always hope that im a happy girl. that's why no matter how frightened i am, how much difficulties i am facing, i still put up a brave front? i guess so. the cheerful me, is not the real me i guess. it is really tiring. nobody understand me..