whoosh..
ahhhh!! so excited! ok lemme say something 1st. i noe that i shud be studying real hard right now and not come here and type an entry. well, had chem prac just now. i thought it was ok, but the prob is, i din test for oxygen for test 1(c) for both solution R and T -_-.. anyway, overall, i think it's ok. shall msg mr chia, ask him wad's the metal for titration.
but most importantly, today, im going to watch singapore idol live!!! so excited!! got the tics from somebody. ahhh, so happy! going with yisha, gg and gg's sis. oooooh!! excited! i'll get to see sylvester! =D *BIG GRINX* ok la, shall sign off here, tatax~
p.s. ppl, do u get 25.3 for titration? and wad did u put for metal M? and is ur anion sulphate?

bye²
so long, goodbye to you and you and you.....

shall work hard for the Os and not come and blog for some time.. all the way till 19 nov. i can do it and get into my dream jc!!

to my friends: though we are now ex-cedarians, we can still keep in contact, eventhough, i noe, everything's no longer the same. but we can still try and maintain it. even if we are struggling, i noe we can do it, because we always do it in the end =). i'll always love u all and will treasure every bit of the memories that we share.

to my juniors: wish u peepx all the best, continue to strive hard and do cedar proud. dun do something that u'll be ashame of telling others like wad miss leong said.

to the tchrs: thankew sooo much for everything that u all did for us. i'll definitely miss all of u, esp those who had taught me before, even if u cant remember me anymore. well, i hope u still do =).

to cedar: i did not regret coming to cedar and nv will be. coz to me, u are the best, and i love u. i will do u proud, i believe. i'll be coming back on monday to take pictures of you, every single corner that i used to hang out, to keep those precious memories with me. the canteen, the study corner, the classroom block, the com labs, the sci labs, the courtyard, the foyer, the corridors, outside the staff/HOD room, the hall, the sports hall, the library, the staircases, the toilets, the benches, the chairs, the gardens, the pe store, the track, the field, the old track, the tennis court, the dnt rm, the home ec rm, outside the dnt rm, the bball court and viewers' stand, more staircases, the air shelter............. there's too many things to recall, to reminisce..

*sniff* okie dokie.. shall sign off here, tatax~

take care ppl!!

the graduation..
woke up one hour late today, that's why i had to rush to take train. was sitting on the train, carrying nuthing but my ez-link, money and phone. thought through a lot on my journey to potong pasir. all abt my life in cedar..

from sec1A, started to make friends. then rep sch in competition, being appointed the level coordinator by mr ang in cldds.

safely promoted to sec2A, continued my life as level co, became an art rep. though it was streaming year, i enjoyed it, thoroughly. had LTC, though i wasnt selected as a leader, i thought the camp was fun, and i enjoyed it too.

went on to sec 3C, was still the level co. new subjects to cope. had OAC, started to bond as a class, told ghost stories at night, got so freaked out. everyone fell asleep on the way back to sch. reached home slept for 14 hours. designed class tee, though i wasnt too happy with the design in the end. but i love doing things for the class. mye came and went. eye did worse overall, worried that i would retain, but i did alright to get promoted. went for adam khoo's workshop, learnt a lot eventhough i din use the skills wisely, but i benefited.

finally, sec4C, the best class. there was aikido, though i cant do. ifd, which i did help out, it was memorable. the sports day, which i ran, and we lost. cheerleading, though i backed out =P. nat track&field, which we cheered our hearts out. x-cty, which i insisted that i should walk, chased by mr tay to make me run till the end. the class deco, which we did last min, me and sharon bought the curtains. the various ktv sessions, had it with cliques. the prelims, which 4C improved tremendously and will continue to strive on. the award, 4C turned out to be best class, everyone was shocked, so were us.

started thinking of the grad song lyrics, felt like crying but held back the tears. ppl'll think im mad if i suddenly cry on the train. anyway, reached pp macs just in time, though im the last to reach, bleahx. ate breakfast there with wend, marie, yisha and jo. had such a full meal. then started strolling to sch. i remembered the time we had induction ceremony, my mum din go, i was made to go to sch on my own, which was the 1st time. and i got lost while walking among the terraces. was damn scared and frightened, wondering wad to do, kept turning back to realise that ive totally lost my way, until i finally see a cedarian and started following her, and i reached cedar! phew~ was so glad though i was very late. felt like crying again, but held the tears back.
reached sch, saw the pretty roses =). gg let me and others listen to wad she recorded. it was sylvester!! he recorded a msg for us!! he said, " hi! this is sly, study hard for your O levels. erm, study hard and pass your O levels! and i love you all!" ahhhh! felt so motivated lolx. and at the same time kinda sad, coz it keeps reminding me that im taking the Os this yr and im leaving cedar.
started taking pictures of each other. took class photos as well. it's the last time we are taking photos together as a class le...... ='( anw aft that, took a rose each and went to hall le. we tried all means to hide the roses from mdm faridah, coz form tchrs stood beside us. it was so lame loh, everyone was acting weirdly, always have one hand behind them, while they were still trying to act normal, which is totally abnormal. ok la, me too. haha. but i think mdm faridah guessed wad we wanted to do le, she's quite smart. and i keep having this feeling that she noes a lot of things just that she kept quiet. went into the hall, i felt proud walking on the red carpet once again, although it is graduation this time. i felt proud being a cedarian. stood at my seat with pride, waited for everyone to come in, as well as the teachers!
after that was miss leaong's speech. she told us a story abt the little apple tree. felt like crying when it came to the end of the story. she believes that each and everyone of us are special and talented. she believes in us, then why din we believe in ourselves? maybe its the last story that we'll be able to hear from her, maybe its the some resemblance that i see in the apple tree and myself or that she has some adam khoo's ability. i guess im just one of those little apple trees, i must work hard to discover the star in me!
aft that was a ppt by kaihui. it was damn saddening loh. all the corners that we would hang ard in cedar, to study, to play, to plan stuff. i was very teary already. everyone else too, some were even crying. then later was runi's speech + video, it was still ok. then janica's speech. then it was presentation of cert. our's the 1st class. and the special one, who presented the rose that each of us were holding to mdm faridah aft we got the cert. mdm faridah congragulated me =). wendy told me that mdm faridah was teary, miss lizah was crying on the bus just now, which i din noticed at all, how not observant. aft hearing that, i felt like crying loh. anw aft everyone got the cert, they showed us another ppt, of wad the form teachers have to say to us. at that point everybody started crying. well, i was just teary. but when we went up the stage for the grad song, "unspoken thanks", i broke down even before the song. just couldn't bear. serene, sorry la, though i said dun cry, but i could't help it. everyone was singing loudly as one, singing and crying at the same time. finally, aft singing, i had almost stopped crying as well. then wendy still crying, and i hugged her and i started crying again. wendy's cry's so contagious loh. then went to take some pictures with very little ppl, coz camera wasnt with me in the morning. took with miss lizah. she asked me why i cry, when she cried, dots.. couldnt find mdm faridah, by the time i did, camera was with my kor. nvm nx time still can take, when i come back to get results. aft that went to eat the food at the canteen. met mrs lim, i think she forgot me, though she's trying hard to remember, haha. nvm.. then went to vj with yisha and wendy.
wad a day. vj was damn nice. i had always liked vj, but pity, with my results, i dun think so, at least not for the 1st 3 months. i shall work hard to get into vj. i think i shud take tsd, somehow. though im quite worried with my english la. but if i nv try, how would i noe? i must discover the star in me =)). after watching the 2 short drama, i was, whoo~ but i thought i definitely do something diff from them, maybe is the diff in thinking ba. *shrug* the thing abt getting into tsd is my eng la, coz the combi need take e.lit.. spent most of the time in vj and i think i'll join swimming as cca =D. im sick of clubs and societies. by the time we reached aj which is abt 3+pm, we realised that the whole thing had already ended at ard 2.30pm, dots.... nj also end le, so in the end we only went vj, should have stayed in vj then. oh nvm.. went home. sat in front of the comp for almost one hour typing this entry. well. I MISS CEDAR! I MISS BEING A CEDARIAN!!
unite cedarians unite!
Indebted to you since the very first cry
Your stream of love never runs dry
Too often I am embarrassed to say
That my love for you never will sway

The effort in us you invested
Time wasn't all that wasted
With you our minds are nurtured
Finally and eventually murtured

chorus
I guess this must be the only chance
To say how much it means to me
To have you by my side
Words couldn't be spoken easily before
But now, i guess i can never manage to say it all

The calendars dotted with movie dates
Pictured of myself and some crazy mates
Birthday bashes and shopping sprees
Just part of my precious memories

repeat chorus

na na na......

repeat whole song

sigh
a short one. tml's the grad, and is also the one year ani for this blog. sadx..

boohoo hoo
today's the last day of school. haix. so very sad. everyone cried. guess i was amongst the 1st to cry, when ms lizah bought a cake for us, and we sang happy graduation 4C, to the tune of the birthday song. was very sad when ms lizah spoke already. she asked for 2 candles, to signify that she got to noe the class for 2 years. so saddening. haix. more crying towards the end of sch, aft everything's cleared and stuff. mdm faridah was forever trying to make things funny, guess she hates those crying crying scenario. but still, its sad to be reminded that today's our last day of school. and tml when we step out of the hall, we are officially EX-cedarians. just feel very heavy whenever i think of that. haix. everybody started cheering, act we started it, i guess. and we asked other classes to join in. the whole of the classroom block was empty except us and its echoing our voices for the last time. omg...... ='( haix. guess its just a sad day for everyone. i'll definitely miss cedar life, miss the sch, the tchrs and most importantly, my classmates and the juniors. everyone out there, MISS YOU!!! and i'll always remember u ppl. LUV YA!!
anyway, packed everything in class cleared everything, and stripped the class notice boards and everything. all the last minute decos that we made, the curtains that we bought, the desktop covers nicely decorated, the books and the soft toys were all cleared out of the classroom. well, u can see the mess outside along the corridor, all the rubbish that we threw. i just felt like staying, taking a last glimpse of the classroom, that i'll no longer be staying in. haix, its just very sad. wendy was like crying away also. well, everybody did. haix.
anw went ny openhouse just now, i wanted to get the goodie bag and go, but oh, walked ard a while only, no more goodie bags. so angry.. ok la, not really la. i think ny not bad, but dun think i'll choose it la. i prefer vj still. if i can get in. oh! i forgot to msg jiam, wonder if she's ard. oh, nvm. aft watching the band, we went off. it was so damn bloody hot down there. i almost got heatstroke. no la, but, it was such a hot day.
haix, tml's our grad, i bet its gonna be very teary. uhhhhhh... ok la, shall sign of here. tatax~
goodbye cedar~ I'll miss YOU dearly. once a cedarian, always a cedarian!

boohoo..
so sad, my L1R5 shall remain as 16. this is bad. feeling so depressed. chem result sucks like hell, i must put in more effort then. i feel so stupid. haix. i think im acting like an idiot also, for crying over the lousy chem results, even though im not using it as my L1R5, in fact i cant use that. tried begging for marks, but cant la. me myself couldnt even convince myself of any ans that sounded reasonable. aft that went back and started crying. then mr chia saw and asked me to look for him and help me search for more. which is quite impossible. so can just forget abt it la. haix. my last hope's gone. shall go study now. tatax~