heyx~ oops, its rather late now.. shud be sleeping, but bleahx =P.. tml.. erm.. today's the last day of sch.. 7 more hours to sch time, and im still awake here, typing away, heeex.. last day means getting back of report book!! die le lah, though i already noe my result.. haix.. hopefully today will be a pleasant day.. going swimming with cheong aft sch.. go all the way to jurong, to play basically.. sat got check up.. scared.. hope my situation wun worsen, i happy liaox.. oh yah, i got eng remedial! wadeva.. i din fail my eng loh.. but 2 out of the 4 days of remedial, i got super teen camp, bleahx.. then, i think im going to pon one day, so left with one day, though the tchr is gab tan, but dun care lah.. maybe his lesson will be fun, shall go for one day then.. hahaha =P.. see 1st.. then got amaths rememdial, wad else.. supposed to have chem remedial oso, but no news abt it lehx.. and damn it, got loads of hol assignments! then got so many things on during the hol! urgx.. shall go off lah, think its rather late now, tatax~

great, my sis read wad i typed last night, she read while i was typing loh, fine lah! peep peep peep.. see all u want! dun buy fone dun buy loh.. big deal, im still gonna say that.. and she said i came online whole day to blog, NO LOH! i was doing cny proposal! she din see that, and she jumped to conclusion.. wadeva.. i think that's the problem, when im working, they dun see, when im slacking, they are always there to see.. they nv see the other side of me, and they juz jump to the conclusion that i din try my best, din work hard enuff.. hello~ im human too, i need rest, i need a break~ in this kinda society, everyone needs break! they cant possibly expect me to work day and night, not doing anything but study~ hello, im not some robot! i need to socialise oso, i dun wanna be some freaks with no frens, and all i do is study.. also, i dun like ppl to read wad im typing, esp for diary like this, when im complaing, its my way of letting things out, why cant they juz let me off for at least this once? i need privacy too, like she does.. my mum will read her diary when she feels that my sis is keeping something from her, and that is why im keeping an online diary instead of a written one, coz i dun wan them to read.. i noe its not very safe as well, but better than juz let my diary lie anywhere at home.. and i muz emphasise that, i noe i din do well for this exam, i promise to study harder and try to get things done, but there's not promise that i will score straight As.. and i dun think that's very possible.. life SUX! im gonne break down soon.. i think i have depression.. i felt like crying a lot recently and i often get angry leh.. urg, wadeva.. the whole world's turning its back on me..

oh yah, checked overall results yday.. my overall L1R5 is 25.. got improvement from MYE lah.. feel a lot better after seeing this, though i noe its not considered good.. then just now my sis asked abt it, told her, and she said so lousy.. wadeva loh, forever saying tt.. she said improve by 3 points oso called improvement? but its really an improvement, a slight improvement!! to me, its a lot loh, considering i did so badly for EYE.. wad more she expect? fine, dun wanna buy fone for me, then DUN buy lah.. i dun wan it anymore since she's expecting so much, im not gonna force myself, i can means can, cannot means cannot loh.. wad can she do? but im not saying that im not studying lah, i will still be working hard, but not for the stoopid fone's sake.. wad's the big deal abt it.. dun haf then dun haf loh, im FINE with it! she always thinks she's so great, if she is, then why cant she understand the sec 3 life? that all subj are bound to drop, or maybe some.. and again, im not taking it for granted, and i DID study! so can she stop commenting when she dunnoe exactly wad is going on in my life! this sux! damn it..

lalala.. sianx, din go out today, watched tv =P.. then watched the ndp '03 vcd.. gawd, cedar's performance was great!! haha, though its not the 1st time i watched it, bleahx.. just that din watch the whole thing before.. its nice, great job done, mainly by the lightings.. esp.. forget it, dun wanna tok abt it.. watched the trailer and stuff, nice! they actually start organising everything as soon as 2002! din noe tt.. but actually quite expected, if not there's really not enuff time for something so grand.. yah, splendid job! a bit slow, but, nvm =P.. today quite slack, supposed to do proposal for nx yr's cny 2004 in the morning, but i ended up watching tv.. but my si using oso lah.. anyway, im done with the 1st draft, got no experiance, dunnoe wad to write.. nvm, got lynn's help.. darn, why must ask us organise? haix.. not i dun wan, but.. dunnoe lar.. anyway, we got some new ideas for the cny =D, but dunnoe whether they will accept nort.. so yah, tt's abt it for today, tatax~

oh yah, there's fire drill today, but everyone just stroll to the bball court tt's all.. then got nagged a bit for being late.. i dun understand, we are always late for fire drills.. why ar?

damn! leakage, urgx.. hate that! this is forever happening to me! wad the.. nvm.. my stomach cramp from last night until now.. still a little, so pain, couldn't sit up straight.. had assembly today.. watched those ppl dance, kinda silly, dun understand wad's so funny abt it, that everyone kept luffing.. me and yuhua was like stare at them, yuhua even ended up sleeping.. forever de leh.. haix.. nuthing to do in klass today, mr tay said he'd come and go thru the paper, but nv.. so had the whole day free~ played connect-4, kept losing, not fun!! im not very good with it, won only once after playing with yuhua for like dunnoe how many times! gosh.. how stoopid can i be =S.. then played stacko, fun!! hahax.. qianyi play till very risky, then kaiting kept making it fall, haha.. so funny, then kalpana kept screaming, lolx.. yep, then........ nvm, end of sch.. actually got cl, but the prc cant make it, so too bad~ went home instead, hahax~ =D kaex, that's abt it, tatax~

results:
English-->C6
Chinese-->B3
E.Maths-->C6
A.Maths-->E8
Chemistry-->D7
Physics-->C6
SS/Geog-->D7
History-->C5
L1R5-->33
disastrous!

got physics and history paper.. surprisingly, i din fail both~ secure my path to sec 4 le =P.. but some of my frens are rather risky.. they might be dropping to combine-sc or worse, retain =(.. anyway, im one of the 7 who managed to pass physics! phew~ but my marks a bit unpresentable lar, C6 =S.. my history surprised me the most.. its better than my physics, which was not the case in the past.. got C5, haha, like not much better.. budden its like, i improved a lot for history! 3 cheers for me!! yeah~ =P i used to fail history all along.. heeex.. so, i failed 3 subj in all.. still not very good though, i noe that.. my mum's been reminding me that.. i NOE!! but anyway, i think my L1R5 will be very unpresentable leh.. think it'll be worse than MYE, how?!?! ive counted my L1R5 for EYE, bad.. but i think they will count it for us again, after collating our CA and MYE.. maybe i can score slightly better, hopefully.. urgx! gotta buck up le lahx! if not my Os will be like sh*t..
after checking all the papers, had free periods and talentime.. this yr's talentime not only not fun, its boring too.. there was too little time for us to come up with anything, in the end, only 2 klasses participated.. then they organised games for us to play, some silly song guessing games, my klass damn un-enthu, and what made things worse was that, i wasn't feeling very well.. heh, pms =P.. damn it.. 3M and 3Z'z performance was quite funny, esp 3M's.. Z's a bit lame and stupid lah =P.. that's abt all for today.. not a very pleasant day, but better than yday ;).. okiex, shall end here, tatax~

great~ wad a day.. got back 4 papers today, passed one.. the one and only i passed, was emaths, with a miserbly 52 ='( *cries* feel like dying liaox loh.. but not till i see my e.geog paper, yep, i failed.. add up with ss, i got 48.. failed by 2 marks.. this is not the worse.. got back chem paper.. 45, great.. last paper of the day, amaths.. guess its my worse paper, and hopefully so, must not have any that is worse than tt.. 41!! my gawd~ i can juz bang my head against the wall and die on the spot.. youqing came over, talked to yisha abt her marks.. talk talk talk, until i started crying.. damn sad canx.. then made youqing cry oso, coz she did worse than me for amaths.. then later marie cried, and a lot of ppl started crying (that's wad i heard), then wendy came and tap my shoulder!! pain~ vernie oso.. she tried comforting me, and kept tapping my shoulder~ haha.. sadXx~ guess my new fone's gone~ my sis said wun buy nice fone for me le.. i oso din expect much, even i scored well, coz can tell one, she din save up much, she had been spending quite a lot recently..
but wad i really cant understand abt someone was tt this reg. no. 7 (shant mention her name in MY diary), din feel regretful or anything after getting marks worse than me.. she was like i wun cry unless my marks really that hopeless.. but she got like abt 20 marks lower than my chem loh, aren't that bad enuff? at least i think it is lah.. i guess she's really hopeless, that's why.. she just think that she's so GREAT, and that the whole world loves her, and that all tchrs are fond of her.. MY FOOT! please loh.. can she look in the mirror nort~ forget it..
urgx!! im still sadXx! how? wad if i retain?! dun wan! *cries* haix.. hopefully the overall wun have so many underlined.. shall sign off here, tatax~

went swimming yesterday with yuhua.. swam from 10.30+ to 1.30.. darn im all burnt.. damn pain now.. nvm.. then went shop ard at hm, then came home to watch infernal affairs.. hmmm, damn pig loh she.. keep sleeping, hahaha =P.. nvm.. then after that, she went home le, and i realised my back and everything was like so red! pain~ but at least i really swam compared to when i go swimming with kiat lah, so nvm, haha, =P.. actually, i wanted to update yday, but my stupid sis lah, was using the comp the whole day, i din even get a chance to touch it, not even the key board, poor me~ =P
hkhk resuming today, hope that it'll be a fun day and hope that no one will tap my shoulder, heex.. kaex, guess tt's abt it, tatax~

oh btw, they gave out the best klass award today~ guess wad? my klass came in 2nd!! haha.. although we din really put in much efforts to obtain that =P.. think is our klass decos that has gained the most points =P.. but their presents quite cheapo leh, a box of kit kats.. then my miss lizah not happy, coz she wanted us to get the BEST klass award instead.. but i already very happy liaox leh.. in fact, the whole klass is, coz we din expect much, at most 3rd only, haha.. bleahx.. kaex, shall really sign off now, tatax~

got back the language paper today.. haix, sianx.. dunnoe wad to say abt it, although i quite expected it =P.. but still, not good mah.. english like, haix, C..6, i think, cant remember.. then my chinese still not bad lah, 2nd in class~ with a score of 67?! haha.. B3.. highest only one mark higher than me lehx.. can u believe it? haha.. nvm.. think monday will be the worse day of my life.. they giving back chem and maths all that.. those papers.. can die =X, heex.. tuesday giving back phy and stuff.. cant really remember exactly, but im sure i wun do well for my chem and phy this time.. cries!! forget it.. going swimming 2ml!! yeahx! haha.. at least can cheer up a bit.. finally, monday got hkhk le, will be a great day ahead! (",) shall stop here then.. maybe i shud be designing nx yr's klass tee, silver klass tee and prepare for the end-yr-camp le.. kaex~ tatax~

nuthing much happened to day, a bit of erm soar throat, for not drinking enuff water, since end of exam, which is 2 days le.. actually, i din drink water at all.. i mean plain water lah.. haix.. nuthing much to say either, gtg.. tatax~

went shopping with my mum just now.. bought some stuff.. cute stuff, haha.. kinda bored noe, nuthing better to do, haix..

heyx.. 1st entry here.. but actually got nuthing much to say.. fod is getting from bad to worse, i think.. that's why decided to shift here, after spending weeks (or months?) to design it, but in the end din succeed, so took the template from somewhere.. =P.. exam ended, whoosh~ can concentrate on other stuff like hkhk camp and tee, and other class stuff, heex.. most importantly, is class outing!! =D think tt's abt all, shall sign off here~ tatax~